I hate so much.Am I normal?

[TheGodS]

I am angry as always. That is all . I'm fucking angry at everything. I'm angry at the libs. I'm angry at the Labour. Angry at Conservatives. I am am angry at the pro Muslim people. I hate that religion. I hate it. I am an Ex- Muslim. It is horrific. That is is all. I'm angry.

Maybe a better question than "am I normal?" would be "is this how I want to live my life?"

Maybe it is - anger can be tremendously motivating and some people don't want to let go of it for that reason. Other people feel it would be moral cowardice to ignore the causes of their anger. But maybe you find this exhausting and miserable - if so, you can change your mental outlook, with help.

Wean yourself offline. If you can.

I'm finding it difficult to practice what I preach. But I know it's the root cause of my anger at the world ... so I'm really trying.

I realise it's the equivalent of taking a matrix blue pill. But I have to think of my mental & physical health. ☹️

Actually I am full.of love. However I feel the need to express my discontent. I am offline quite a bit. But truly, I had to fight so hard to get my freedom that many people, women take for granted. I lost so much. I do apologise, I am angry & crying right now. I know life is not fair, don't care, cos I fought & won with losses. I dunno, sometimes I wanna be weak & not strong.Do women understand where I'm coming from?

I'm too, spitting feathers angry, blood on the moon angry, if looks could kill EVERYONE on the planet would be dead, angry. I find it therapeutic.

What you need is a song

Your anger may well be justified, but I'd ask yourself what good it's doing for both you and to eliminate the injustices you're railing against with it. Apart from the emotional and mental exhaustion you are undoubtedly causing yourself by constantly thinking about all these things in the world and society and your environment that make you angry, keeping yourself in such a state can actually do you long-term physical damage. Stress hormones can cause raised blood pressure and adversely affect your digestion. It can also cause your body to trigger inflammation and weaken your immunity. So unless you're channelling your anger at the way the world is structured and run by participating in some positive way to remedy things, then I think you're being self-destructive.

Yep. I agree. I am feeling vulnerable right now. However I do agree with what you said. Yes, it affects health, totally. Thank you all for replying to an angry, in the moment post. I feel not alone. And that is a good thing. Thank you women.x

I think you should speak to your GP or MIND.

To get angry is normal, to live your life being angry is not. Whether you now have any faith or none I commend to you part of the serenity prayer

"God, grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time, Enjoying one moment at a time."

Awwwww @TheGodS I feel your pain. I have students who wake up to the way the world is stacked against women, and they say they can't see the world in the same way again.

I think that every feminist has a moment of incandescent rage when she realises (I realised at around age 12, but that was the early 70s when things were really bad). Turn that energy into action; work out what you feel you can do in the face of the overwhelming rage. How can you make things better for women? For Islamic women? Baby steps.

It'll be OK, really it will. But welcome to the world ... You will make it better.

Anger and hate are two different things.

As others have said, anger can be useful and justified, in proportion, but it is not good for you to be angry all the time.
I see no benefit or use for hate.

It is important to look inside yourself, recognise what is anger and what is hate, separate the two, then use/control the anger and try to work on ridding yourself of the hate, or rise above the hate.

Anger is weirdly akin to complacency. It keeps you stuck in a loop, of inward and outward unsettled reactionism. With no real consequence, except to make you feel worse and make people not take your views seriously enough (when it isn't directional).

It is far better to harness it. Do random small acts of kindness, even if people don't appreciate it (there's loads of ones, can be with strangers etc). Daily. Giving compliments, leaving a pound somewhere for a kid to find, opening doors, chatting to people, picking a piece of litter up, offering spare multipack ice lollies to strangers on a hot day. Listening first. Reacting second..

Teach the change you want to see. That sounds like a very worthy bullshit sentence, but if things don't change, change them. Being angry in limbo is totally wasted if you can't use that power. Join in with things that resonate with your ideals. Groups or protests, feminist movements. Small-scale or larger scale.

Remove triggers. People, situations, if they don't serve you, examine their worth and see if you can eradicate them. Selfish therapy! It's a form of love, which isn't ruled by anger, but is powered by assertion.

Also, you're an ex Muslim. Are there any groups to support ex Muslims in your area? Could you start one? Redirect that hate into a form of mutual support, and help to remove more women from that situation?