I think about Swash often.
Sometimes I remember that Chinese story "the happiest story in the world":
Grandfather dies.
Father dies.
Son dies.
The reason this story is described is "the happiest story in the world" is because this is how things are supposed to be. Grandfather, who is old and has lived many a long year, dies.
In the family, people grow old and die. But if the father dies first or the son dies first, that is not any kind of happy story.
The happiest story in the world is that people live and die as they are supposed to, in the natural order of things. It may not be a thrilling story, but it is comforting.
We know that the happiest story in the world is simply a story. We long for it to come true.
I have many friends for whom the story has been the saddest story in the world. In my own family, young people have died before old ones. Grieving and mourning fades eventually, but memories are there for ever and ever, and there is some comfort in sharing those memories, and honouring the dead.
So dear Swash, and her daughter, and her beautiful son, forever changed in a moment, are more real to me than the happiest story in the world, which is just a story.
Sending much love 