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Former Trans Child of Gender Critical Parents (very long). *Trigger warning - descriptions of self harm and suicide* - Title edited by MNHQ

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pop91 · 26/03/2022 22:33

Hi,

To start I wanna say I'm writing this post in good faith to provide the viewpoint of a Trans person with Gender Critical parents but I know this is the internet and this will probably just be trolled to death but here goes.

I had a pretty regular 'happy' family setup, and apparently first told my parents of my identity at just 5yrs old but the first I remember is at 8yrs old when I refused to go by my 'very gendered' birth name but my parents insisted on using it especially publicly.

My parents were never particularly strict on gender roles in the home - my sister would wear my dad's glasses and jacket and stomp around with his briefcase in hand and my brother had an emo phase with heels and mascara to match and apart from some grumbling from my father it was never the biggest issue in our house.

Sexuality was different though even though my father would class himself as a pragmatic centrist, barring a socialist university phase, and my mother a card-carrying progressive New Labour type whose Best Friend was the most flamboyant gay man and an Aunt who lived with her 'friend' until she passed. There was an uncomfortableness with sexuality where both my parents would call it a lifestyle choice and opposed gay marriage - cut to three years ago when my older brother came out as bisexual and last month the youngest sister as a lesbian Grin but rest assured the other 3 siblings remain firmly 'normal.'

Back to me and by 12 I had started puberty and was experiencing debilitating gender dysphoria - I would look into the mirror and see nothing that matched my brain. I would continue to feel this way until the bullying and dysphoria got so bad that one night I climbed into my bathtub with a kitchen knife hoping I could change my body to fit my brain somehow I managed not to perform self-surgery in my bathtub.

A couple of months later I came clean to my parents, I wasn't expecting a big hug but I wasn't expecting what came next. They ignored it as if I had told them what I wanted for dinner, they decided they didn't hear what I had said at all.

Over the next year, the internet became my friend as I found ways to affirm my gender by doing hidden things at first and then slowly more outward things. I came out to my siblings and although they found it confusing my oldest brother and sister were a godsend who I wouldn't have survived without, They helped me pick out a new haircut and new clothes and we came up with a new name.

I came out in school and sure there was bullying but I was feeling so Euphoric that it almost didn't matter. When the teachers found out they informed my parents and that's when everything changed! My parents sat me down and said I was just confused. They threw out my new clothes, anything that I used to affirm my gender, even my shoes and magazines then they took my bedroom door off and took away my laptop and phone and forced my older siblings to refer to me by my birth name, my older brother and sister stopped supporting me and I lost my only family support and anything that was helping me.

Eventually, when they realised everything they had done hadn't worked and I still felt the same way, they decided to try both religious and non-religious conversion therapy which left permanent scarring to my mental health and I frequently have nightmares about it.

At 15 I had my first suicide attempt and my parents forced me to lie and say it was due just to bullying at school but that wasn't true it was the dysphoria and conversion therapy that was killing me.

From 15 to 17 I had multiple suicide attempts and after the third one, my parents finally allowed me to stop the conversion therapy but still forcibly live as my 'biological' sex.

Eventually, I managed to get to a great University and at 18 I socially transitioned and by 20 I had started hormones. I now have a job that provides me financial stability and have an amazing partner, with 2 children from a prior relationship that I now consider like my own. We are also now having a baby very soon.

My mother now describes herself as Gender Critical and frequently posts online about how she will be unable to see her grandchildren because of her views, which is true as I will not allow my parents to see either my child or stepchildren.

My parents continue to refuse to acknowledge my identity and pronouns. The last time we talked, she said she believes I am just gay, which neither makes sense considering my partner's gender nor the fact she also has a terrible relationship with my lesbian sister and bisexual brother who also rarely allows his child to visit my mum, due to her comments about their sexualities.

I finally have the support back of all my siblings and we do frequently gather without my parents. I hope one day my parents change their minds but honestly I don't hold much hope and I don't know if I could forgive what they did to me.

A lot of online trans activists wish trans children for Gender Criticals but I don't, it wasn't very nice at all. If you're going to ask if I think kids should transition, the answer is I don't know as I didn't transition as a child and a social transition helped plenty for me.

Well that's it I think, just the perspective and experience of a trans person with Gender Critical parents, feel free to ask any reasonable questions or respectful questions. Smile

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donquixotedelamancha · 27/03/2022 18:56

CIS is a neutral descriptor of anyone who isn't trans. It's like being offended by 'Straight' or 'White' or 'trans'

You're dictating offence for a group you are not a part of.

WarriorN · 27/03/2022 18:57

This is now 3 years old but is an explanation of how in some "organised" trans communities, especially including teens, there is coercion and abuse.

This is becoming a very familiar story from many who've left. Not all but enough that many of us are concerned.

DomesticatedZombie · 27/03/2022 18:58
  • I wish you well, but all women are not your mother. We have no obligation to act as such. As I said before, a sympathetic therapist may be useful to you.

I wanted to understand how GCs parents treat gender dysphoric children.

My children are totally fine with themselves, their bodies. Their various choices about hair, clothing, toys are their own to make and I know that it has no relation to or bearing on their sex. They aren't really old enough to have formed sexualities yet, but I will be quite happy whatever that turns out to be. So I can't really answer your qu.

Cheetocat · 27/03/2022 19:01

Thanks for sharing, sorry about your mum being selfish.

mudgetastic · 27/03/2022 19:01

And how do I know I have no gender?

Because I'm m teens I did have a gender identity that mismatched my sex

And then I saw it for what it was

An expression of distress and hope for something better

pop91 · 27/03/2022 19:01

@PrelateChuckles

I mean if someone says they are left-wing and then gets elected leader of a left-wing party and then espouses right-wing views, would you still believe them to be left-wing? (subtle Blair/Starmer dig) grin

Oof! Grin Someone tell Starmer the trans folk still aren't impressed!

Anyway my point was people can call themselves what they like, doesn't mean it's accurate by any objective evidence! I'm really honest and clever, so you can take my word on that....

I mean I'd appreciate it if he would remove some Gender Criticals from the party if he's claiming to be Pro-Trans as I don't think you can be Pro-Trans and gender critical.

but that really is getting off-topic.

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WarriorN · 27/03/2022 19:02

Pop, I hesitated to post that as it wasn't meant to be nasty at all. I'm sorry if it triggered difficult feelings.

We never get this level of engagement from males who identify as females and post in a similar way. It says more about them as you actually.

There's an air of extreme entitlement from them. They know they're not actually female. They know they're invading a female space. Conversations may start well but quickly degrade and questioning isn't responded to with a level of balance.

334bu · 27/03/2022 19:02

CIS is a neutral descriptor of anyone who isn't trans.
It's like being offended by 'Straight' or 'White' or 'trans'
They are neutral descriptors that don't deny your identity as a biological woman because that's literally what it means.

No they are not and might I remind you of what you said this morning...

You're dictating offence for a group you are not a part of.*

334bu · 27/03/2022 19:04

I meant " No it is not(neutral) Apologies for failed Bold

pop91 · 27/03/2022 19:06

@donquixotedelamancha

CIS is a neutral descriptor of anyone who isn't trans. It's like being offended by 'Straight' or 'White' or 'trans'

You're dictating offence for a group you are not a part of.

lol.

again massively off-topic.

But fine let's say for argument's sake that Cis is actually offensive, what language do you propose we use for people who aren't trans?

As GC's you don't have to call trans men actually men, you can keep the label trans in front even if we feel we don't require it.

How do I describe a collective group of people who are not-trans in descriptor form?

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RoseslnTheHospital · 27/03/2022 19:07

Can I ask, @pop91, do you think gendered roles/expectations/stereotypes are harmful to women (and by extension, some men)?

Or do you think they're only harmful if they are applied to trans people based on their sex rather than their felt gender identity?

WarriorN · 27/03/2022 19:08

I don't think you can be Pro-Trans and gender critical.

not exactly pro trans but accepting of differences and willing to explore motivations - mainly to establish best care for all.

https://gender-a-wider-lens.captivate.fm/

There's a lot of binary assumptions going on. Them v us.

Life isn't black and white. It's entirely possible to be empathetic and supportive while making sure no harm is done and right support is given and established at the right time.

Sandinmyhooves · 27/03/2022 19:09

We’re the majority, and it’s our sex term for which we have suffered. And do suffer. So you don’t get to amend it. We’re women.

334bu · 27/03/2022 19:11

But fine let's say for argument's sake that Cis is actually offensive, what language do you propose we use for people who aren't trans?

Why is this a problem? If you are talking about people of the female sex you have lots of words, women,girls etc. Not a problem.

Rinatinabina · 27/03/2022 19:13

Women and men?

BinBandit · 27/03/2022 19:13

Self indulgent pish. Your sex is biologically determined in every cell of your body but honestly, live how you like, just don't pretend to be what you aren't. Who looks in a mirror and thinks their brain doesn't match their body?

Whinge · 27/03/2022 19:16

How do I describe a collective group of people who are not-trans in descriptor form?

Male / female

Woman / men

It's concerning that you needed someone else to point this out. Confused

Rinatinabina · 27/03/2022 19:17

Also cis means gender identity aligns with sex. Most people probably don’t have a sense of themselves as having a gender separate from their bodies. So when you say cis you are assuming they actually have a gender identity. I don’t feel i have a gender identity, I can’t describe myself as a being a woman in a way that doesn’t reference my physical body. So when you assign me cis what you are doing is saying I believe in gender identity and experience it. It’s a massive assumption to make and assumes that every single person has a gender identity.

pop91 · 27/03/2022 19:17

@RoseslnTheHospital

Can I ask, *@pop91*, do you think gendered roles/expectations/stereotypes are harmful to women (and by extension, some men)?

Or do you think they're only harmful if they are applied to trans people based on their sex rather than their felt gender identity?

do you think gendered roles/expectations/stereotypes are harmful to women (and by extension, some men)?

Yes harmful to ALL people.

Or do you think they're only harmful if they are applied to trans people based on their sex rather than their felt gender identity?

I don't believe that my gender identity is connected as much to gendered roles/expectations/stereotypes as it is connected to wanting the body that fits my brain. I use gendered roles/expectations/stereotypes sometimes to reinforce that identity but its not the basis for it.

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pop91 · 27/03/2022 19:19

@Sandinmyhooves

We’re the majority, and it’s our sex term for which we have suffered. And do suffer. So you don’t get to amend it. We’re women.
white people are also the majority in the UK.

It's not offensive to call them white. is it?

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WarriorN · 27/03/2022 19:19

The whole idea of it, trans theory and campaigning, including cis, is pitched from a very privileged point of view.

Clymene · 27/03/2022 19:21

This is what I believe. Gender is a prison which traps people into little boxes.

There is nothing wrong with your body or anyone else's.

Former Trans Child of Gender Critical Parents (very long). *Trigger warning - descriptions of self harm and suicide* - Title edited by MNHQ
RoseslnTheHospital · 27/03/2022 19:21

I hate to break it to you. @pop91, that you are also critical of gender, or gender critical if you will.

mudgetastic · 27/03/2022 19:22

Wtf does it mean body fit brain

Are you suggesting some brains are female and some male ? That's there is something in how your brain works or perform that indicates you sex?

Can you ( no its beyond you ) understand how insulting that is for women who have had to fight to be recognised as being full humans capable of intelligent thought ?

pop91 · 27/03/2022 19:22

@Whinge

How do I describe a collective group of people who are not-trans in descriptor form?

Male / female

Woman / men

It's concerning that you needed someone else to point this out. Confused

and collectively?

not a man or a woman but a group of non-trans people if I want to explain that they are not trans?

should I say, non-trans people?

How do I specifically note that a group of people is not trans?

and also don't trans people fall into the descriptors of man and woman for you? as you disagree that someone can be trans?

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