@SisterWendyBuckett
Then why am I still trans?
I don't mean to sound unsympathetic Positrans but it's not all about you.
From what you say you had a shit time going through male puberty. That must have been extremely difficult for you. But your experience cannot and must not speak for all others who suffer dysphoric feelings and find puberty traumatic.
You do realise that this is what most of us feel - even if some of us don't feel it quite as acutely as you.
I would have thought that with your insight you would want to help ensure that kids who feel this way are given as much psychological support as possible while they are going through puberty - then, if they still feel the same way about presenting as the sex they were born, other options can be carefully explored and considered.
I don't expect you to agree with me of course, though wouldn't it be good if you could give this some thought.
None of the people I went through puberty shared the specific reaction to it I had. Certainly many had a tough time, but it was qualitatively different to my experience because they didn't have gender dysphoria. That's not to lessen their suffering, it's only to note that it was a different sort of suffering.
I'm certainly in favour of extensive psychological support for trans kids - none of this waiting for years to see a specialist, and I'm happy for them to have multiple counselling sessions - most need it because gender dysphoria is extremely difficult to cope with.
However, going through the puberty of their assigned sex will in many cases, cause huge problems that will affect them for life. I have known several people totally unable to live with the consequences and who subsequently took their own lives. A close friend survived but was in a coma for 2 weeks.
So, I have no qualms about trans kids taking puberty blockers for a few years to give time to consider, and I welcome making all the psychological counselling they need and more available for them in the meantime, but I know what puberty does to trans kids and it's vastly more devastating than any purported effects caused by a few years on blockers.
Hopefully, as the biology of being trans is further studied, we will reach a point where diagnosis can be certain, blockers can be avoided and trans kids can go straight to hormones at the onset of puberty.