I also think some of the stuff about testosterone in utero is not really relevant. Everyone has aspects that may be considered more “masculine” or “feminine”. Sometimes, this is in looks, body shape, character. The point is, if you are a more “masculine” woman, that is absolutely fine, you are still a woman. I’ve have always felt like I don’t fit into groups of women. I tend to feel clumsy, I’ve always had an abruptness and assertiveness that I know is not seen as “feminine”. So do lots of women.
You know, the trouble is people start expecting perfection, and solutions to all their problems. A LOT of people feel that they don’t “fit in”. For a whole host of reasons. Sometimes, that’s just how it is. You find a few friends who you have things in common with. You get the confidence to be the person you are, and that’s fine. You get on with life, you become interested in the world, rather than dwelling on your own identity.