daniel sorry to hear you didn't have a strong male role model who was able to model healthy masculine behaviors for you. I'm a man and probably older than you so I'll endevour to step up. You came here with an inking something wasn't quite right about prostitution, but you want a rationalization for doing it again.
Your particular disdain for women, and for feminists in particular is obvious, I think you know what response you'd get here and use that as a justification for using prostitutes again.
You have this binary view of women, which is inaccurate btw however presumably you want to attract a particularly decent one later in life, but you are going to be making that hard for yourself as decent women will run a mile from men like you, unless you develop a particular talent for self deception. However your true nature will out and it will just end and you will end up alone and bitter.
Truth is almost always preferable to falsehood, and by succumbing to this delusional fantasy you will find catered to within the sex industry you will move further away from an accurate view of the world and calcify even more unpleasent attitudes towards women.
This in the long run will retard your own happiness and prospects, but by then you will lack the self knowledge to diagnose the problem and will end up blaming women even more. You have already placed your first foot on that path. You already view human sexuality as transactional as opposed to reciprocal, and this comes from a surrender of your own agency to the alter of your own sexual desires.
Power, and male power in particular stems in truth from the power you have over yourself. Deep down you know this but surrendering your own sexual being to this transactional paradigm WILL set you on a woman hating course, it becomes inevitable, so be a man, don't do it, and self reflect. Shoot me a pm if you have any questions or help with this.