Terrified of aging

[FreeNiki]

Anyone else.

Im already terrified of being past my best and think I become more worthless the older I get.

My DM used to sing that to me when I was a child Pies

She was always an old woman, I think she was born an old woman. At 40 DM moaned about her knees and told me to take care of myself as she was old and would be gone soon. She is now 80, still fit, well and mobile, but has been saying that shit for 40 years

I had my only child at 39. I am now 45, reasonably fit and healthy and as far as I can see have a good chance of the same amount of time over again. I will not spend it moaning and waiting to die like DM.

Often life doesn't work out how we plan it. I wanted lots of children but turned out to have a medical condition that meant I lost many pregnancies. I could sit and cry for what I don't have sometimes I do but instead I try to focus on the future. There are new hobbies to try, places to go, people to meet. I have plans and they help me look forward instead of grieving for the past.

Sorry you are feeling so down, OP

If you have nothing to lose I would really consider doing something radical...what is your job? Can you take a year off on sabbatical or transfer to an office in another area or country? Go and have some fun! Work on a cruise ship or in tourism somehow so you can be paid to travel, get live-in jobs so you can save up more effectively, or volunteer for a charity overseas...really if things feel this bad any change is a good thing - try something new - you can do it - break away from the grind and have an adventure!

Im a solicitor.

Got made redundant a few months ago and trying not to go through all my savings.

You need to find something you love. Art, gardening, DIY, cooking, history, makeup lessons whatever. Oh and exercise. The best advice of all This focus on your looks is pointless.

I'm assuming that you are thus far attractive? Look after yourself, eat well and find things that interest you, find ways to be happy! Happy people are attractive. Botoxed expressionless people are not attractive. Enjoy your life.

No but I am afraid of dying/death.

I was a bit miffed to find a long, lone grey hair the other day though (I'm 26?!?), hopefully it was a one off.