I wish I had said that Old Lady...
Cos that is the thing...this is not a game with counters...it is not a political, lifestyle tweak...it is about real people, real survival, real lives.
If I were from a poverty stricken third world country and I knew that if I claimed to be trafficked all my kids might have a real chance of growing up in Europe or the US, I might not like it, but I would have a moral obligation to claim to be trafficked.
If I were in my 20s again, from Eastern Europe and selling sex to explore the richer countries in the west and I felt I had a choice between claiming to be trafficked and serving a prison sentence I am ashamed to say I probably wouldn't have the guts to risk serving the sentence...as long as I didn't have to keep up the lie for too long.
That is where most, if not even all, trafficking figures come from, if they have any factual basis at all and what makes that possible is a wave of politically expedient, reactionary hysteria that has no sense or logic to it.
It is a way to distract people from the impact of austerity and channel their anger away from politicians.
It is a way to maintain and expand funding streams for NGOs nobody wants or needs.
It is even a backhanded way for ordinary people to reassure themselves that austerity isn't really hurting anyone, and by extension they have nothing to fear.
But under it all, the bottom line is there are really people like me who (through an unusual combination of circumstances) came to a place where the only honest option they had on survival was to sell sex.
I can assure you there is no chance I was mistaken about that, I had a somewhat morbid dread of selling sex and did not have the right temperament for it at all. There is no way I (note that word, others feel differently) could have sold sex unless it was a matter of life or death.
I was not unique.
There is absolutely nothing in the "Nordic Model" or any of the abolitionists/rescue organisations I see today that would make any improvement in that situation if it were to occur today. I actually see a lot of things that would make it far worse.
There is no doubt in my mind if the Nordic model had been in effect when I needed to sell sex that I would not have been able to survive.
Now, I am not warm and cuddly. I do not attract sympathy. I know that, but do I really deserve to die for a largely fictional political agenda that will only help those who already have more than enough?
Does anybody deserve to die just so that cynical opportunists can claim credit and funding to pretend to "rescue" them?
...and if they do not deserve to die for that, they surely do not deserve to be made to suffer for it at all.