Strange breast mass/lump

[Grapefruittea]

Just looking for a hand hold really until I can get to the doctors. Four years ago I was diagnosed with a fibroadenoma underneath the nipple. Two years ago I went to get it checked out again as I thought it had grown. They did an ultra sound and it was fine. I have been rather obsessively checking my breasts for the last month... prodding and poking and now it feels there is a harder mass just below my fibroadenoma . I wouldn't call it a hard lump and it feels really ropey. It does feel harder on this side than my right breast but when I push down I can feel the same ropey texture on both breasts. It just seems the side where I have the fibroadenoma is the tissue below it feels harder. But I'm not sure if this is because my obsessive prodding and Poking over the past month. I'm booking an appointment tomorrow but just hate that it is so hard to check your boobs, as you always come across rouge lumpiness and bumps and it's hard not to panic. To whoever has read this, thank you. I just needed a space to get my anxiety out xxx

@VerityUnreasonble so glad you got seen so quickly but also appreciate the frustration of not having the all clear. I'm keeping all my fingers and toes crossed that everything comes back ok next week. The sound really positive and I guess they can't give you 100% all
Clear unless they have done these tests - really annoying and I would feel the same as you. However, try to take comfort in the positive things that thy have said. I hope you manage
To relax a little this weekend xxxx

Been reading this thread and see a lot of you waiting for apps etc. Thought i would give you some advice that really helped me. STEP AWAY FROM GOOGLE !!!! All the info, even NHS and cancer charities is out of date by at least 2 years and will confuse and worry you.

Be assured as well that in most cases the breast clinic can tell by mamogram/ultrasound on the day if it is cancerous or not. The cancer support thread on the health board is really good if you do get bad news.

Best of luck to you all.

@Redannie118 very kind of you to comment! Thank you. Google is the worst. Xxx

@Redannie118 that is very kind, thank you.

@VerityUnreasonble that sounds very positive and I think if they had cause to be very concerned they would prepare you today, so I have everything crossed you hear great news next week.

Is anyone else here finding sleeping/eating really hard? I have never been such an anxious mess!

@VerityUnreasonble that sounds really positive. From what I've been told, the breast clinic tend to give you any potentially negative news there and then

I've had another full day of poking and prodding my poor nipple and, of course, found something else that's worrisome 😫

How's everyone doing?

Struggling tbh. Fallen out with my boyf. Found out he'd told his teenage daughter about my lump and she told his ex wife and she asked him questions. I didn't want either knowing. I think he's in the wrong but he thinks he's done nothing wrong.
Now questioning if he should come with me to my appointment on Wednesday or not! What do people think?

Hey @overthinkersanonnymus sorry not been on! Had a full on weekend and then started a new job today! Still anxious and now I've convinced myself I've got a weird mole too! I definitely have one thing - health anxiety

@Whoknows11 I'm so sorry to hear this. Men can be so insensitive sometimes and I would be angry too. Why is ex sticking her nose in? Surely she should be offering support if anything. When you're in these stressful situations every little thing is the straw that breaks the camels back xxx

@Whoknows11 also realised I didn't answer the question. Is he normally kind and caring? It could have just been an honest mistake and if he is normally supportive I'd bring him along. I'm going on my own as single! Have told a few friends that have been supportive xxx

@Grapefruittea yes he's normally great but it's like he's scared of his ex wife and children that he doesn't think of protecting me. It's made me really sad. I do think I'd prefer to go on my own as I just need to focus on me and not be worrying about him or us.
When is your appointment?

@Grapefruittea just re read the post and it's a week today....
The closer Wednesday is coming the more nervous and real this really is becoming x

@Whoknows11 I'm sending all good luck and positive vibes! Just remember the positive stats that most are benign xxx

@Whoknows11 I've decided to go on my own on Friday, I know DH will be supportive whatever but I prefer a bit of my own space and time to process things before thinking about other people's reactions. I think it is very personal if you want someone with you, and can sometimes be helpful to have another pair of ears.

@Grapefruittea congratulations on the new job! I hope the first day went well and it is a helpful distraction!

I've been for some (unrelated to this) counselling today so that was a good space to talk about it a bit but I'm exhausted tonight! Really busy week at work this week which will at least keep my mind occupied.

How are you @overthinkersanonnymus ?

Oh no I started reading as also in the 2 week wait and then read the post saying abscess is usually bad news. I've been on antibiotics for over a week, and had pain for about a month (tenderness and swelling) before that. Similar to op, but mine was satsuma size apparently although shrinking. Slightly more panicked now.
Been three times before and it's always been a cyst, this seems to be some weird mutation of the pre existing fibrous tissue.

@OneFrenchEgg just to reassure you the doctor, even if they are 99% sure it is an abscess won't know for sure without further investigation. It doesn't mean it is bad news. I know these things are really scary but please don't read that message to be more negative. It's positive but just going to the clinic for confirmation xxx

May I join with an unmumsnetty hug and handhold.
I saw the GP on Friday who agreed she could feel a lump and referred me. Then I got a call today asking me to go for a mammogram tomorrow (I’m 48 so it’ll be my first). Apparently here (Wales) they do the mammogram at the breast clinic first and then get you back in to discuss results either way.
I’m so nervous about the mammogram tomorrow but very pleased they are being so quick. I’ve managed to avoid panicking so far but am feeling very panicky tonight and trying to remember that I told myself I’ll look on the bright side until science tells me otherwise.

Thanks @Grapefruittea but the response to antibiotics makes me think it must be. I didn't realise a breast abscess was a bad sign, sort of wish I hadn't read the thread!
Oh well, can only wait and see now.

@VerityUnreasonble I'm unreasonably calm for some reason on the surface. I can't decide if it's attached to anything or if it's mobile . I've been trying to remind myself of the statistics and not mess with it as much.

I've also started looking in to the worst case scenario, and trying to get my self prepared if I do get bad news

I want Monday to come quickly but then panic and want to run away and do not want Monday to come round 😂

Welcome to limbo! It's shite 😂

I'm hoping that by this time next week, we can all forget about this thread and get back to our normal lives 😫

@overthinkersanonnymus what time is your appointment on Monday? Mine is Monday too! Big hug and hand hold to you. Xx

Gosh so sorry @OneFrenchEgg that was my fault! Abscesses are of course usually just abcesses. I was doom and gloom panicking about my own only because having one when not breast feeding is much more unusual (not impossible obviously!) and can sometimes suggest other causes (but so can any lump). Please don't worry. It is most likely to just clear with antibiotics!

Good luck today

Aw don't worry @VerityUnreasonble I think I've been feeling crap about the whole thing, I delayed checking it out as had previous bad experience, kids are stressing me out and I'm in pain - it's all a bit much rn.

@OneFrenchEgg it is rubbish! I hope the meds are helping and you have some decent pain killers too. Do take care of yourself, the huge liklihood is that it is "just an abscess" but even that can make you feel really shit (and the antibiotics have side effects too!)