Really need a Doctor right now or I'm going to break down

[Toottoot11]

I feel so dizzy and scared. Have awful health anxiety.

31 years old.

This morning found 3 small pin head sized marks on right breast. Been googling like mad. I'm so scared I have inflammatory breast cancer.

I have been obsessively checking my breasts the last couple of days and I don't knownif I've created trauma to my breats but these red marks have scared me. I feel like my head is so heavy and I'm going to be sick and I keep going to the toilet.

I have two small children and their dads taken then out to not see me in this state again

I suppose so. I also feel very childish.

I'm sorry. You have all been so lovely.

I've had my tea. Wrote down some of the advice, re website to visit and things to say to GP. You havnt all wasted your time on me.

Thanks guys...

(I have obsessively been checking this thread may I add...refreshing and refreshing!!) I think I may have obsessive tendencies too. If I find something I like ill will for example read it many times, watch it on repeat many, many, many times!

I found these dots at 7.45 this morning

If its IBC, I will eat my phone.

awww

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It’s not helping you.

Hi OP, recent breast cancer patient here. Not the type you fear but I do have a friend who has had that and it was a lot more than 3 dots, I can assure you.

Further, I wore a bra yesterday that felt a bit scratchy. Reminded me to soak it in some fabric conditioner. This morning I had a red mark on my BC boob and one on the other boob. Indeed one was an actual small scratch. I'd hazard a guess that that is what has happened here.

I really sympathise with your HA. I had it for years. I don't now because my worst fears came true yet here I am to tell the tale. I think it's very unlikely you have IBC but If that is what you fear, GP is your first port of call. I think it's far more important that you address your mental health. Please make that a priority.

Also, for the record, my surgeon and indeed my oncologist both said avoid Google. The reason for this is that so much information is outdated and doesn't apply to you. So please stop doing that, it's pointless. I can't tell you how much light has come into my life since I sacked off Dr Google.

I hope you can find a way forward, not least for your DH and DC's.

And the case. Possibly the headphones too.

@nothingcanhurtmewithmyeyesshut

And the case. Possibly the headphones too.

With you on this one!

@CorrBlimeyGG

Your anxiety is going to harm your children far more than the breast cancer you don't have.

Please get some help.

Exactly this. You might believe you hide your issues from your children but I promise you, they'll be picking up on them. You don't have cancer, you have potentially serious mental health issues. Those are what you need to treat. Stop indulging yourself by Googling and trying to find problems which aren't there.

Sometimes what happens with me is, I'll focus, focus, focus on something and then something else will come along and wipe the previous one out. For example yesterday j was obsessively feeling a lump under my arm that I've been told is normal breast tissue...since I found these blood spots I havnt given it a second thought this lump...

I want to google so badly. There are so many combinations of wording I haven't yet tried.

It's like going cold turkey.

If it weren't for the fact I'd have to explain to DP why exactly I was taking photographs of my left tit, you could have any number of images of completely harmless cherry angiomas. I've also got them appearing on my side and a really annoying one that's larger than the others turned up on the end of my old section scar over the summer. Some are flat, some are slightly raised, one is about the size of a cooked quinoa grain.

I'm not going to die of them any more than you are.

@Toottoot11

I want to google so badly. There are so many combinations of wording I haven't yet tried.

It's like going cold turkey.

You need a psychologist, not Mumsnet.

Well I didn't Google all night and I slept! I know that it's not problem sorted at least I slept and didn't check all night.

The blood spots are still there this morning. No bigger and no more or them. They havnt shrunk or faded however.

Well done! Half the battle is not letting yourself go down the rabbit hole.

My rule is, if its still there in a week then I can go to the doctor about it.

@Toottoot11 I hope you're feeling better today. I've had health anxiety in the past. Its terrible. Thankfully I have learned how to cope with it. Please speak to your gp ,

How are you? I hope you are able to get some help, sometimes when we start worrying we can't help but google and that makes our fears worse.

Been to see GP...Its just them cherry spots. He's referred me for another course of CBT counselling.

I'll also take all the advice on this thread. Thanks guys. You got me through Sunday somehow.

YAY!!

I am realy happy that you've seen your GP and they've put your mind to rest.

Also great that you are getting some support too. You will get through it :)

There is nothing more surer that I was going to see a GP today. I only couldnt go yesterday as I'd get a right bollocking for going in works time and I worked a 12 hour shift.