Really need a Doctor right now or I'm going to break down

[Toottoot11]

I feel so dizzy and scared. Have awful health anxiety.

31 years old.

This morning found 3 small pin head sized marks on right breast. Been googling like mad. I'm so scared I have inflammatory breast cancer.

I have been obsessively checking my breasts the last couple of days and I don't knownif I've created trauma to my breats but these red marks have scared me. I feel like my head is so heavy and I'm going to be sick and I keep going to the toilet.

I have two small children and their dads taken then out to not see me in this state again

Is the dr treating your anxiety?

My cherry angiomas don’t bleed when I scratch them.

Op, you need to see a Dr about your anxiety. You are missing family time regularly because of it.

You say your DH is getting fed up. If you don't tackle this he could leave, and take your son. It will be affecting your child too.

You need to address this. It's really no way to live and you can get better but it has to come from you.

Please get help. This anxiety will fuck your kids up. I definitely absorbed my mum's health anxiety and have battled it too over my lifetime.

I find that the antidepressants don't utterly prevent the health fears from surfacing occasionally, but they DO let me talk myself off the ledge relatively quickly and get on with my day, vs experiencing the paralysed horror and all consuming dread that leaves me incapable of anything except ruminating on the worst case scenario. I will still go to the doctor to discuss anything that genuinely concerns me after I have calmed down. Health fears on a Sunday are the worst because you are stuck with your own worst fears before you can get to the GP.

@Frankii this is my greatest fear. I got the ocd off my dad and I don’t want to pass it on. I’m starting cbt therapy tomorrow, I’m really hoping it helps

Toot toot here's my advice. 1. Don't call a doctor yet. 2. Do you have a cat? Could have scratch you. Or something it's not breast cancer.

1. Have a cup of tea. 4 Relax and do a self check for lumps in your breast. You probably won't find one. Don't think little red dots mean breast cancer. You don't have anxiety. You are paranoid. It's okay you can heal from this. Before you have another episode, get screend for breast cancer when COVID 19 ends. We all are very health conscious during a pandemic. I understand what you are going through. Don't keep worring because 90% of what you worry about is not going to happen. If you have self medicated the last year. this is a symptom of mental illness due to substance abuse and it's normal. Get off any mind altering substance like alcohol and have a healthy diet and excercise regime.

@Tippexy

Please don't waste the GP's time with this. There are people out there who need urgent appointments for serious conditions and can't get them. Self-refer to adult CAMHS in your area for CBT.

The average wait list for CBT through self referral is 12 months. If OP is so distressed that her DP is having to take the children out of the house so they don’t have to witness her then she absolutely should go to see the GP so they can start a plan of action.

Where are your children now?

@CorrBlimeyGG

Your anxiety is going to harm your children far more than the breast cancer you don't have.

Please get some help.

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@daisydaisy11

Any chance they could be flea bites. Three bites in a row is typical for fleas although they would probably itch.

Really?

Stop looking online for diagnoses that you’re not at all qualified to give.
See your GP for your health anxiety. Before the actual anxiety ruins your life.

Step away from the internet!

@Toottoot11 I have the same marks on my breast (both of them) and my arms. Doctor said they were a sign of aging (at 48yo!) and not to worry about them.

Bear in mind I have a neurological condition which might be triggered by breast or cervical cancer, so I am very observant of my breasts.

Hopefully my positive story will help you feel slightly better.

I think that maybe you could speak to your GP and ask if you can have six monthly breast exams just to put your mind at rest. It could be the practice nurse that does it, but if it helps you they may agree.
I also think that you should ask for some counseling just to help you cope with life, it sounds like you are completely overwhelmed. I'm sending you a virtual hug xx

Just to add my female GP looked at my marks in a face to face appointment. aka not over the phone.

Blood spots are very very common and 90% of the time disappear without intervention. You need to tackle this health anxiety before you end up passing it on to your kids. Address the root of the problem, not the symptom.

This is unfair on your husband too. How long do you expect him to put up with this. Stop googling everything. Google will tell you an itchy arse is cancer if you click through enough results.

Also every time you waste a GPs time with some random symptom of nothing and go in scared it's cancer, you lose credibility. So if you do then have something concerning, they've already written it off as one of your health anxiety episodes before they even look.

My DH took the kids out and i wqs too upset to go. He did look at the end of his teether again. He's back now and given me a cuddle and made the tea. My kids didn't see me like i was as I was upstairs and when I have my moments I come away. They must think about where I dissappear off to every once in a while but they never see me visibly upset.

Your kids know when you're upset, and your anxiety will cause them to be anxious as well. Please get some help - for your anxiety - for their sake.

Hope you feel more relieved soon OP and get some help managing the anxiety. My DM has suffered from health anxiety as long as I can remember and has always refused to deal with it, which has been exhausting for her, DF and the rest of us, but also had the effect that when something serious developed the GP first assumed it was her anxiety.

I know. It just feel like I'm protecting myself and preparing myself for the worst then I'm not shocked when it gets diagnosed.

What the point in living in ignorance or bliss when you have the symptom of something so serious.

It just feel like I'm protecting myself and preparing myself for the worst then I'm not shocked when it gets diagnosed

Can you see how heavily flawed that thinking is? You're not protecting yourself, you're making yourself ill, and I can promise you that all the preparation in the world does not make a diagnosis any easier.

You don't have cancer. Stop trying to justify irrational behaviour.

Please get an emergency GP appointment for your anxiety, not your boobs.

So this is probably not IBC ? It's more likely trauma or something more benign?

All of this 'reassurance' isn't reassuring you. You'll just post more and more and there's no reassurance to be had. But that is the nature of HA - you'll just keep going on and on and on (and I do understand why but still..)

You need to arrange some CBT and posters ideally shouldn't engage with you regarding breast cancer because it doesn't help you ultimately

This reassurance seeking is classic ocd xx

It's health anxiety.

Nothing anyone says (including Google) will help you as the issue is a mental health problem not a physical one.

You must get help for your anxiety - showing your doctor this thread would be very useful to help them understand how severe it is.

It's nearly 4 hours later and you are still obsessed by the dots. It's not healthy.