thanks Ria, i woke up thsi morning feeling really crappy as ive got used to feeling like im doing well when i wake up..ive had words with myself[smile} and said that im seeing how EASY it would be to put it all abck on again!..i dont feel like the tablets are working for me anymore..i dont feel as full and these are meant to be the stronger ones!..or maybe it WAS all in my head and its just cos im not with it, that im floundering...anyway...im an adult, i HAVE self control, im still fat, so i MUST stop being a stupid self centered child and pull myself together!, im letting no one down but myself here and i know how good it feels to have lost weight now, so it would really upset me to let all that go to waste.
I have got up this morn and felt ill, somtach pains again???..so am going to drink lots of water today, just got back from school run waiting for mindee to arrive and made myself a bowl of bran flakes..and as i used to do before, while eating was thinking..am i full yet???..and as soon as i was (and with these pains i feel uncomfortable anyway) i stopped..i think my prob is more emotional, i feel a bit run down, sick of twice a month period pain and bloating (my belly is literally hanging over my jeans sat here, it sooo bloated, am stressing about getting everything done before centerparcs/christmas, trying to get house sorted in free time and take people here there and eevrywere..then on an evening i literally cant be botherd, i want to sit and do nothing!..even dont want to eat on a night, its more through the day im picking!!??..have got rid of the heroes at school, and WILL NOT buy anymore!
Sorry ive gone on a bit, guess im just ahving a word with myself again, re confirming why im doing this and working out were im going wrong..thanks for listening anyway girls...keep up the good work, Ria, you're doing really really well and PUT THOSE MUFFINS DOWN RG!!!!!