Another summer weight gain upset

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I lost 4 stone over 2 years.
Went from clinically obese to BMI of 25.
I did this with 2 years of MJ and achieved my goal at Easter this year.
I was beyond frustrated that it took my body TWO YEARS to lose 4 stone but I am a very slow loser even with WLI.
The money spent on MJ was a fortune for me and I can no longer afford it, especially at the increased priced. I stopped using it at Easter.
And now.....since start of May I have regained 3 stone.
3 stone.
How have I gained 3 stone in one summer?
It took me 2 years to lose 4 stone and that was with 100% discipline and daily calorie tracking to ensure a minimum of 600cals deficit daily and non stop CV exercise 5 x weekly and still it took 2 solid years, yet I've put 3 stone back on in just 4 months!
Just tried a cotton top and trousers on that I last wore at Easter and both were loose fitting and floppy on me. Today, neither of them fit or do up, I can't fit into them, and I can see in the mirror I look obese all over again.
Oh help.
I'm beyond upset.
And I can't afford any more MJ.
It's all over my back, like someone has picked up a slab of 2 foot x 2 foot of lard and hung it on my back. My breasts have ballooned. My abdomen looks like a giant enormous apple. My upper arms look huge. My face is fat. My bum and legs remain thin.
Please be gentle - I am very vulnerable in my mental health due to childhood neglect, so please go easy on me. I know I'm fully responsible but I really need help and advice here.
I spent 10 years on diets, Slimming World, Weight Watchers, Atkins, Cambridge, regular calorie restriction, all 100% disciplined yet never lost weight. I thought I must have a metabolic disorder as I was sticking to plan better than anyone else in the group yet they'd all lose weight at the weekly weigh-ins despite "Oops I had a cheat day this week!" Whilst I remained the same weight despite 100% dedication. Then MJ came along and I did it, I lost 4 stone that I'd tried to lose for a decade. It took 2 years but I did it. And now, 4 months later, I have regained 75% of the fat. I haven't even binged at all. I simply started eating 'normally ' again without calorie counting.
I am severely beating myself up this morning.

Thing is with these calculators is we are not the indentical bodies and it’s a very blunt instrument. People have different metabolic rates too; I certainly know people who eat loads and remain slim and others who gain weight just looking at a slice of cake, both with similar activity levels.
But the fact remains put you or anyone in a forest for a month without food and everyone will have lost weight. If you’ve had your blood checked for any conditions then you need to be super vigilant about how much you can eat day to day without gaining. I can lose weight on 1700/day. Currently I’m on a 1500/day diet and lose up to a kilo a week (I’ve lowered it as trying to get to a healthier BMI quicker for an upcoming operation). I’m 64, tall and sedentary plus have type 1 diabetes.
I just used the TDEE link above and it says my ideal weight is 146-151lb but I’ve weighed that and it’s too thin and almost impossible to maintain. 175lbs I’d be a size 12-14 and while technically ‘overweight’ (just) I don’t care - I know what looks good and is sustainable.
Are you truly meticulously weighing every morsel that you eat? You are not a medical miracle- if you lost before you can lose again. You have yet to figure out your maintenance calories though - not for where you are now but for the weight you want to be, and that unfortunately takes some trial and error (and getting to that weight in the first place).

Op, none of us sadly are medical marvels. All our bodies work the same, and even slow metabolism has very limited impact. It’s about 200 cals a day,

to maintain your current weight, you are right, you will be eating between 2000 and 2500 cals a day on average. To lose you only need to go to 500 under whatever that number is , that’s a pound a week. A thousand to 1500 under would see 2-3 lbs a week weight loss.

to gain 3 stone in four months you will have been eating between 3100 and 3500 cals a day on average over a week. You will be under estimating your cal consumption.

id also second that you need to weigh yourself regularly. You will have known you had gained a lot of weight and were eating too much, you can’t eat normally as normal for you, like many of us is over eating which led to the obesity in the first place,

can you possibly afford wegovy tablets? They are lower cost and may give you a kick start?

Should I switch to Wegovy I wonder.
Can't afford MJ anymore but I always hear MJ is cheaper though I also hear it doesn't work. But it sounds like it does for you!
What dose works best for you to lose weight?

I’ve only just finishing my first one. It seems to still work. They upped my dose but I felt off with it so I’m back on a low dose.