@ToutesetBonne oh I hear you and agree with every word about chocolate. I’ve said here before I know I have an addictive personality but I gave up cigarettes (difficult) and alcohol (easy) and I cannot control myself with chocolate. I’ve been trying to give up chocolate for many years but it wins every time and like you the next day I am really cross with myself and repeat …
i wrote a long post last night three times and deleted because it was far too convoluted and made me appear more than slightly crazy.
a brief outline is that I’ve always turned to chocolate if I’m upset and particularly if someone has been nasty to me when I was trying to help and be kind. Yesterday there was a family situation which wasn’t a big deal at all and the person involved will have thought nothing of it. I was a bit “that was unnecessary” but again it was nothing horrendous. Again I turned to chocolate in a big way, knowing I’d be upset with myself today and knowing how excessive the amount was for the tiny amount of hurt I felt.
it seems then that my addiction is getting worse and I need help. I should have distracted myself and I knew this but I’d had a busy day and was tired so I gave in. I need a strategy for coping with this. It would have been an evening dog walk but Lottie (my new dog) is so strong and powerful and with the other two I can’t manage them alone. DP doesn’t do evening dog walks and tbh I like to go alone. I could never just leave her alone at home, so I’m stuck and I need a resolution in case this happens again.
my chocolate habit really is out of control and I fear it’s getting worse. I wonder if anyone can relate to my problem, I need to sort this out as I am just hurting myself and getting fatter and more unfit. I have very low energy atm due to my ME and exercise has always been my distraction previously but now it’s not possible. I’ll have to think hard when my head clears.
have a great Wednesday everyone. I’m going to the dentist late morning and I know i need at least one filling but DP and I are walking the dogs down there so I’ll get some exercise.