DIET FAILED AGAIN thread 6- everyone welcome

[thenewaveragebear1983]

We made it to 1000 posts on thread 5, here is thread 6

@Sedgwick my boss did actually say that, but to be honest I find the thought of being off for a month just as stressful. Believe me I don't work in a stressful job at all, and I wfh 4 days a week and the people are lovely. I just had a call with my boss and she has been really lovely. Maybe I should ask for 2 weeks instead of one as a sort of middle ground. I think I have just been somewhat naively thinking that I will just wake up tomorrow and I will be back to normal and feel fine. I guess if that does happen I can just return to work. I'm not really good at being ill.

@thenewaveragebear1983 that’s great you have a lovely boss, you can play it by ear knowing they are in your corner. It’s so helpful to know they can be flexible with your recovery time. I just remember once being ill and getting very stressed when I had to ask for a week off each week, so by Wednesday I started getting stressed about not being well enough for Monday and phoning my work for another week off and so on, it was so counterproductive. I know you are much more active than me in every way and this change of pace is hard for you, I feel so sorry this has happened to you.

Thanks @Sedgwick, I think I just don't want to admit or think about the possibility of this lasting a month. But 2 weeks may be a good idea.

To be honest, I am looking forward to next week when I can just rest completely during the day. When the dc are here I just can't, my boys have just played on screens all week I feel so guilty! They are fine but it's not ideal. Today I just lay on the sofa and watched Gavin and Stacey all day! And took one tree down but that exhausted me so all the lights and decs are just shoved in a box. And I ate loads of Christmas cake! It's weird, I actually have no appetite really but I'm feeling very low so I've eaten for comfort. I am going to try hard tomorrow to focus on healthier food, I need to build myself back up not exist on crap. I know I will feel better if I do.

@thenewaveragebear1983 I second at least two weeks off work. I've been thinking of you a lot and really hope you get better very soon, I'm not a good patient either.

Christmas is back in the attic, it's a big job but it's done. I've got to do a clean where Christmas was and then it's completely back to normal, goodness it went fast.

I had been doing well be DD arrived last night with a MacDonalds and a macflurry 🙈 . I did say that this was a warm up for starting Monday didn't I, or was that just in my head.

I've got the family staying for a month from Tuesday onwards so if will be mayhem. The kids never stop snacking and there'll be food everywhere. Also it's DDs birthday in January, perhaps it was a bad month to start.

All celebrations over and it's time to started to look at my weight gain seriously because this can't go on.

Have a good weekend everyone.

I think I'm going to have to ease into the healthy changes too. DDs having a birthday sleepover today so we have a house full of girls and we've had McDonald's. This is the first sleepover we've hosted so not sure how it will go. They are currently doing a painting candles craft kit quite happily.

Did try to do a five mile walk yesterday with my best friend but less than a minute in we had to rethink the route. The pavements were slicked with ice we could barely get to the top of my street. So we did three miles on a grassy flat walk instead - followed by a filling pub lunch.

Tomorrow will probably be spent recovering from the sleepover and enjoying the last day of the Christmas break . . . possibly with snow?

Morning lovely ladies. How are you all?

I have requested a 2 week sick note, I hope I don't need it but at least I can rest knowing that's sorted. I do have the tiniest little flicker of movement now in my eyelid and also the side of my mouth, this is so reassuring and such a relief. I have been very very low this weekend and really felt like I was not ever going to get better so I am now just going to trust it will and rest.

I weighed myself post Christmas -new year. I really needed to because I needed to draw a line under all this unhealthy food and junk I've been eating and focus on nourishing myself a bit and being kind to myself. I've put on a bit over Christmas but to be honest, I'd already put on a bit since the summer, and I am back up to probably the highest I've been in a while- 164lbs which is 11 st 10lbs. I'm not setting any strict goals or targets right now, just lots of water, fruit and veg, early nights and proper meals.

Hi everyone, just about to try the cross trainer for the first time since I hurt my knee. I think it’s healed now. Weighed and am 9st 5 lbs, would like to lose a half stone and get back to where I was before December. I didn’t diet last week, too much Christmas stuff still in the fridge. Taking down the decorations later, DS (21 😂) is asking to keep it up but I am being firm. @thenewaveragebear1983 You are making good progress, hang in there and play the long game.

Hi all. Not much progress although I feel like I'm eating less junk. Hoping a batch or two of soup will assist.

No progress from me either. Going from DDs birthday party to snow day to back to work. Heads all over the place and I'm still grazing on all the food that seems to be in arms reach.

DD also wants a chinese this week on her actual birthday.

Can I get on track when the ice goes away?

unfortunately this afternoon I had to have my dear old cat put to sleep, he was having a nosebleed that was likely due to a ruptured tumour in his nasal passages. Poor old guy.

I did have a reasonable day food wise, I ate 3 good meals and no snacks. Lunch I had a proper baked potato with butter and cheese, and dinner I made a dhansak with chicken. I didn't really eat huge amounts of either.

@thenewaveragebear1983 I'm so sorry about your cat, it's so difficult.

I haven't felt like posting or dieting because my dog is very very ill. It came on all of a sudden and her heart is giving out. I don't think it will be long now before she's no longer with us and it's so hard. I'm actually in bed with her in a basket at my side and she's just coughing and gagging, it's horrendous to hear and I doubt I'll get any sleep at all tonight.

Because of the above I might be absent for a while. I know I need to knuckle down, I really need to, but this is not the moment.

Good luck to all of you at the start of the year and I'll join you shortly.

Oh @poorpaws , is this the same dog who was poorly recently? Such a shame. They are like family aren't they, it's heartbreaking when they are suffering.

@thenewaveragebear1983 yes it's Molly, the one who recently had a lump taken off her ear and an ultrasound where they found how bad her heart was, we had no idea before that. She's on heart tablets but this morning took a turn for the worse and she's really in a bad way now. It's so sudden and it's just breaking me.

I know how sad you will be this evening as well, and my heart goes out to you

How is she today @poorpaws ?

@thenewaveragebear1983
I was up all night with her, she was coughing, gagging, retching distressed and neither of us had any sleep. I decided it wasn't fair and I was going to ring the vet to discuss euthanasia.

I had ordered three months of heart tablets online and I rang the online vet company, explained the situation and they have cancelled my order and are returning the money.

Then, equally out of the blue, she perked up, stopped the coughing and was looking for her walk. The day before she was way too ill for a walk. We decided to take her for a short walk which she managed magnificently, wagging all the way.

I've spent the rest of the day sitting beside her in her basket and she hasn't coughed once. Now I know enough about dogs to know they have a last hurrah before the very end and this could be it, but I'm at a loss. She won't leave my side for a second so she must be scared.

It sounded as if I was exaggerating the severity of last night to my partner but my daughter told him exactly what had happened and how very bad it was and to be honest we were both expecting her to die overnight. Now I'm at a loss.

How are you coping?

I'm ok thank you. To be honest, whilst I love my pets, my old boy was very much on his 9th life and had been for a long time, he was a bag of bones and whilst yes I am very sad, we sat last night and fondly remembered his 17 years rather than being overcome with grief. I've smiled about him today rather than cried, he had a good innings. It's very very different with dogs than cats too, my heart would break in two for my dog. I'm sorry you are having to go through this with molly, what has the vet advised? They must see this frequently so could maybe advise you on the right time and what to look out for.

I haven't spoken to the vet yet but the last two visits were end of life talk and that was back before her operation in November. I'm not really happy with my local branch of my vets. All the newly qualified young vets start at my local branch which is why we travelled an hour away to the same vet company but where an experienced heart specialist is.

To be honest we know she's been on borrowed time for a long time (heart disease, cancer and arthritis of the spine and old age) but until yesterday she had such a good life controlled by the right medication. I fear the end will be very soon as the vets didn't expect her to last this long. It is heartbreaking.

@thenewaveragebear1983 I think it's wonderful that you've been able to celebrate your cats life with a smile instead of tears, you are very strong. I haven't cried so much today.

So sorry @thenewaveragebear1983 and @poorpaws. Pets are so special to us. We have two cats. They are definitely part of the family. Sending you both love!

We had another very bad night and she hasn't picked up this morning. She refused chicken breast and sardines (both her favourites). Her breathing is extremely laboured.

I've rung the vets, it's 4pm, the day I've dreaded for a long time but I have to do this for her. Torcher doesn't even start to cover it.

I'll be missing for a while, I'm a wreck but I'll be back as soon as I can.

Hi and love to all. Sad to read about the pet situations.

I weighed this morning a coupke of times. First time showed a few lbs down, the secont time showed the same weight as the last few weeks weigh-ins. I do feel a little slimmer though.

I've started to do more stretching as I spend a lot of time on a laptop. Hoping it will help lose weight. Likely to?

Morning all
Hope you are ok @poorpaws

Had a terrible day yesterday, I just cannot get my head in the game and despite sticking to my meals during the day, most evenings this week I've ended up eating all kinds of rubbish and sugary snacks. I am due on tomorrow which isn't helping, plus being tired and bored of being at home and not doing anything or seeing anyone. I have tried to combat this by having a really high protein breakfast and loads of water. I am going out for lunch with my mother in law, just to a little craft centre cafe so probably will have a jacket potato or similar but she will apply heavy peer pressure for cake. Dinner will be a casserole as long as I get home early enough to slow cook, otherwise I will have to improvise.

I've had a no motivation week. Think the combination of ice, dark evenings, busy weekends - 2 birthday parties, back to work has just sapped my energy. Just been rushing from one thing to the next then rewarding myself with food for doing the things.

Haven't weighed this week but I will in the morning. Expecting a gain.

But tomorrow is a new week. I know I can get back on it. I know I feel instantly happier when I am at least trying. And this coming week is a bit lighter for the social calendar.

Well I won't lie, I've had a terrible week. I've just not found my groove at all. Loads of bread, sugar, chocolate 🤦‍♀️ my hormones are all up in the air and I'm tired. My face is hugely improved but I still only have about 50% movement, for example I can now chew on the bad side but I can't bare my teeth or move my lip back. It's amazing how many tiny movements our faces make and how we only notice when they suddenly can't do them! I can now half close my eye, but as an additional pain, it is periodically weeping tears, when i walked the dog today I had tears rolling down my face and I gave up wiping them away in the end.

But enough about my face.

Food: I have planned my menu but not done shopping yet. I'll do an order tomorrow for delivery Tuesday. I've used the chubby cubs book which has some really nice recipes. I have roasted a chicken for meat for lunches and I really need to try and eat some vegetables.

I'm signed off this week due to return next Monday but I am still not right so my plan this week is to rest rest and rest some more. I miss work and I miss exercising but I know I need to still rest to get completely better.

Hope you all have a good week

Think your plan is a good one @thenewaveragebear1983 . Really glad your face is recovering, even if it is slow going.

Weighed this morning 10st4.
Going to aim to get it to 10st3 by Sunday.
Starting with small steps. Going to try and do 15 minutes on rowing machine tonight and no alcohol.