I'm starting saxenda this week.

[Saxendastarter]

I'm 33.

I'm 1m68 (5ft6)

I don't actually know what I weight and I got rid of my scales last year when getting on them just made me cry every time and I was just too depressed to even try and start loosing weight - I have ordered scales and will weight myself tomorrow.

However last time I weighed myself nearly a year ago I was 94kg (14st 11) and I know that I have gained since then.

I started gaining weight the beginning of covid, before 2019 my very highest weight had been 68kg ( 10st10) and my normal weight had been round 62kg for most of my adult life, so I have massively put on weight over these last four years. (Separation, depression, stress at work, and just general giving up).

My body is ruined by stretch-marks and my boobs that used to be great are now just swollen and saggy and stretch marked.

I'm really depressed by my weight and have decided its time to do something about it.

I have an office job and I'm not at all active.

I've tried to start making small changes, walking to the underground instead of getting the bus, getting the stairs up the one flight to my office instead of the lift but everything feels like a struggle and I have such awful thigh chaffing that walking is often excruciatingly painful.

I how I need to make a change because on top of it being so unhealthy being so over weight just makes me so upset. I've stopped going out as much and have just retreated into a shell.

I also have an appointment with a psychologist tomorrow.

I decided last month that enough is enough and I need to do something about it all.

I've started using face cream, and am finally having laser on my very very hairy thighs and - the point of this thread - I'm going to start saxenda tomorrow.

I thought I'd journal here.

@Bloodylovecrisps By the way, this is my graph, I wasn't using the app for the first 12 days so just entered my starting weight and current weight which is why it's straight to start off with, then I started weighing everyday, you can see my weights goes down, spikes back up and then goes down again - but the downward trend is down.... so gaining weight isn't a fatality, its a part of the process.

@Saxendastarter What lovely photos, in such a beautiful place. Everything you are saying about discrimination of people in larger bodies is sadly true & I have experienced it, it has destroyed by self confidence. Your attitude to challenge this is refreshing & inspiring.

@ThisMustBeMyDream well done on a brilliant loss.

@Tarragon123 welcome to the thread, and here's to a successful first week for you.

@Bloodylovecrisps Don't be disheartened, I'm sure you will be right back on track. I do a mid week weigh in to just to for a sense check.

Sending everyone positive thoughts today for a great week.

Managed to stick to plan all weekend, managed to have pizza and stay on track yesterday. DP and I went walking both days over the weekend, and enjoyed the beautiful weather. I am feeling motivated to make sure I am not suffering in the heat this summer, last year was hard.

I had a bit of a shock this morning as I flipped back through one of my journals from Jan 22 and I have gained nearly 5st in 18 months. I feel such an absolute idiot doing this to my body, and making myself look so awful-even being so overweight to start with. I don't smoke, and am careful with alcohol for health reasons, yet still do this with food...so foolish.

Thank you all for your support. I weigh daily currently because I'm obsessed because I'm trying to keep on track but the weekly trend has been upwards. I've upped my water intake again today and started logging again with MFP so i can keep a better track of what goes in. I'm definitely hungry today though so I will up my 0.6 dose tomorrow.
Seeing your graph has helped @Saxendastarter thank you. What app are you using?
@Glorfindels I get the horrible feeling when you look back and realise how much weight you've managed to put on. Try not to look back, you are doing something about it now which is 100% the point to focus on. Was there a specific reason things changed for you around 18 months ago? Be kind to yourself.
Hope you've all had an okay Monday so far!

@Bloodylovecrisps its My weight - i find it easier than MyFitnessPal

All true!!! Sadly, the colleague who complained (loudly) is a woman. The men I work with are all very nice, thankfully, but in bars it's a whole other world. I am not ready to be invisible just yet.

Day 24

Breakfast:
2 black coffees
1 home made chai with almond milk and sweetener

Lunch :
Water
2 spoonfuls of spinach ricotta lasagna ( couldn't stomach it)
A bite of aubergine fritter ( same, head was saying yes, body was saying no)
2 small cannolis - strongly this sugar bomb I managed to eat...

Supper/Evening drinks:
Fizzy water
1 mulled wine
3 small white wines
Shared a massive cheese board with pickles and so so much bread with a friend.

Morning, I've gone up to 0.9 this morning (0.6 plus 5 clicks) so I'll see how the hunger goes today. I weighed again this morning, offical weigh day is tomorrow, and I'm 1.4lbs (0.6kg) heavier than weigh day last week, which I just can't understand 😭 sorry to be so moany at the moment!

@Bloodylovecrisps Maybe it’s a time of the month thing ? A constipated thing ? A your body just being an arsehole thing? I weigh first thing in the morning after having a pee. By the time I’ve had my shower and coffee and water I’m 600gs up ( yes I do weigh again getting out of the shower … ) … would you consider taking a break from the scales for 3/4 days ? I know how disheartening it can be. But you’ve got this. If you continue with your efforts the scales will end up by going down. Hang on in there.

Hello everyone and thank you for the warm welcome. The nauseousness is weird. I actually felt like eating this morning to try to settle my stomach, so I did.

@Bloodylovecrisps how long have you been using Saxenda for?

Thanks both, I'm going with the 'my body hates me' option! 🤣 I'm going to weigh tomorrow morning for my official weigh in and record it and then try to stop for a few days. The problem is that when I see it going down I am motivated to keep doing well.
Today is the end of week 3. Hoping week 4 will be better!

Sorry I've been awol! Weigh in today and I'm only 100g down, so 96.9 kg.

Yet a top that a month ago was really tight over my chest is so much looser now, that if I were buying it today I'd probably go down a size. Weird.

Started my 15,000 steps a day challenge yesterday and have achieved it 2 days in a row. I'm sore and tired, probably should have built up to it....lol. My team is currently in first place so yay us! All of us have synced to devices and you can see the count going up over the course of the day, but I suspect not all the teams have (large company - about 150 teams) - I wonder how honest they will be?

@Bloodylovecrisps - it's hard to keep going when the scales don't cooperate, but keep it up, we're here to help!

@Tarragon123 - maybe a slice of toast in the morning? Carbs aren't the enemy, just need to be in moderation and I find carb and protein the best way to settle my stomach.

@Saxendastarter - you're doing so well! I'm so pleased you're regaining some of your confidence!

@ThisMustBeMyDream - I find it has to be a really soft fatty area of my body for the injection to not hurt, and also low dose. When I upped my dose it hurt more, and I think it will hurt more as I lose the fat. Mixed blessings....lol.

Hi Everyone . Love reading all your posts . I’m just not great at individual replies . It’s great that this has become such a lively , friendly place . I’m totally invested in all of you now . It’s a real eye opener hearing how negative people are about women over a certain size. Encouraging to hear about all the great weight loss and that it’s making us generally more happy , more confident. Weight gain ? Happens on every diet so I hope it’s not to much of a disappointment .

I am on day 5 . 0.6mg until Thursday . All good, no side effects . I do get hungry towards the end of the day so may start doing the injections in the evening . Im definitely much more controlled when I do feel hungry . The temptation to just eat what’s available has gone. Portions are smaller and I feel satisfied more quickly . All good .

I weighed myself this morning and dropped from 81.4kb to 79.3 so happy with that .

Those who encouraged me to start despite the horrible circumstance were right . I have far more focus and energy to help my family than I had 5 days ago. This thread is helping a lot too .

Hi all,

@OrderOfTheKookaburra well done for the steps!
Hi @Footgoose happy to hear you have no side effects.

TL/DR Long non related to weight or saxenda work ramble ahead - feel free to skip my posts - but I'm journaling here because it's helping me I think. I'm trying to sort out more than my weight.

I think I'm done and I'm over it. The last two Sundays I've been on walks instead of staying at home and working to get ready for the week. My director actually asked me yesterday if I'd changed my email settings - normally when I send emails very late or early or at the weekend I program them so they hit everyones mail boxes at 8am Monday. I sometimes send him emails directly though because I know he works at weekends ( and hey, his company, his choice). He didn't get a pack of emails arrive from me on 8 am two Mondays running so came to check I hadn't changed my settings. I just replied that no, but I hadn't worked over the weekend. He looked pretty shocked- two weekends running off was surprising to him ... I'm mean I'm contracted for a 38 hour week Monday to Friday - but probably do excess of 50 most weeks.

Then this afternoon, I have no idea why he decided he wants to pull back on a big International project I've been working on for months and months and that has already been signed ( we're talking, hours and hours of zooms, 3 actual trips to the US, 10 days in Bruxelles, 1 to London to negotiate, 7 institutional partners from 5 countries and an over 28€ million budget over 3 years ) to see if we can renegotiate the terms I had him explicitly green light multiple times over the last 6 months, with all the assorted spreadsheets, powerpoints, presentations, simulations etc and he has signed off on everything.... This is the 4th time he's pulled something like this in the last years, each time we've finally gone back to plan A - because I'm going to sound big headed - but my plan A's are solid!

I told him I needed to leave early (5pm here) to think things through because trying to retro peddle now is going to be a massive headache, a shitton of extra work and ultimately put our company, and more importantly to me, my reputation as a negotiator in the trash. He made a joke about not working weekends and leaving early. Yesterday I was in the office from 6am to 9.30pm had lunch at my desk and apart from checking this thread through the day took no breaks. I then had quick drinks cheese with a friend and came home and worked until 1am. Today I had a zoom in the with china at 5.30 am, Took a quick "break" afterwards got to the office before nine and did a full morning of meetings before having lunch delivered to my desk again. It's just so demoralizing and exhausting.

Tomorrow before the 4 day weekend here (the joys of May in France) I'm going to tell him I want to leave and let him stew over the weekend.

On the bright side my favorite person of the moment has suggested going to Giverny the weekend after next (I'm away this weekend) and has said that from now till August when we both take annual leave we should try and plan a big walk day trip out of Paris every Sunday. I'm very happy with the prospect of more time with him in such a lovely outdoorsy way. And leaving work I popped into the supermarket and before I would have grabbed massive full fat fizzy drink (like 2 litres) and cookies and over trash. Today I was temped but I got a caprisun, some 80% chocolate and some yogurt to eat at home if I want. So thats an improvement.

Blimey @Saxendastarter . You work longer and harder than anybody I know .

@Footgoose It's not always this bad but is by waves and waves.

Day 25

Breakfast:
Squash
Black coffee with almond milk

Lunch :
Water
9 assorted salmon avocado cheese Maki
2 beef and cheese yakitori
Half a chocolate lava cake
Coke zero

Snack:
Calissons d’Aix (250 calories worth!) Delicious though.
Caprisun
Square of black chocolate
Sugar free tonic water

Supper:
A babybel
CBD herbal tea
Sugar free squash
Water
Sugar free tonic water

Did zoom yoga with friends for an hour and a half

I was so tired when I went to bed last night I genuinely can't remember if I injected.... 😳

@OrderOfTheKookaburra oh no! Can you check if you have a new little bruise somewhere ? Was it good tiredness at least ?

@Bloodylovecrisps Thinking if you, my up down spikes are continuing!

Happy Wednesday Everyone,

@Saxendastarter It is all going in the correct direction though!

@Bloodylovecrisps Yep- 18mths ago I was in the mist of a horrible period, and I just gave up caring. Bereavement, caring for elderly relatives & DP's breakdown to name a few issues! looking back I think it was a depressive episode due to circumstances. I still have counselling, and I'm pushing forward with a 'fake it till you make it' attitude. You just get to a point where you have to shut up and move on- which is where I am now. Fingers crossed for a good result for you this week.

@OrderOfTheKookaburra I shouldn't worry. I couldn't remember if I had given myself the correct dose the other day, so I just carried on the next day.

@Footgoose Sounds like a great start to the week for you- well done. the getting started is always the hard part.

@Tarragon123 Don't worry, the nausea subsides after a while. Hope you have a good week.

Hope everyone has a really good week.

Mid week check in:- Still calorie counting & stuck to 1.8ml, as it seems to still be working and planning to stay on that as long as possible. Nausea has largely gone, but I have lost all interest in food (for the first time ever), eating feels like a chore. It will be the 4 week mark on Friday, aiming for the next stone bracket -which would be amazing.

Decided to get myself a treat when I hit 12kg off, some really nice face moisturiser.. maybe some Elemis or similar, would prefer some diamonds- but that seems a little extravagant.

@Glorfindels Diamonds are never extravagant ! ;-)

Hello 👋👋👋

4.4lbs off in my first week. Very pleased with that.

@OrderOfTheKookaburra thank you, I started nibbling on some biscuits in the morning. That’s helped

This evening is the start of a four day weekend here in France. I'm going to the Lyon region for a girls weekend. I'm quite stressed about it because the Beaujolais region means two things - wine and cheese and also there will be a woman there who I really like ( Inspirational, kind, successful, beautiful, lovely and strong) who I haven't seen for 5 years - I was 52kg last time I saw her and I'm ashamed of the weight I am now. I'm hoping that the Saxenda will help me stay reasonable throughout the weekend and not binge and drink to excess all round. I'm also hoping that we'll walk a lot. I'm not sure I'll be able to weigh there as we're staying in airb'n'bs.

Friday will be my one month on Saxenda day.

I've just ordered 5 more pens for an eye watering 470€, the price of them means I have no choice but to succeed, once I've got through these pens I'll ask my favorite person of the moment if he can write a script, however I think prescribing here is only allowed for endocrinologists and thats not his speciality. I'm also still sort of ashamed that I'm dependent on Saxenda to loose weight and that my will power wasn't enough. I know it's okay to need crutches in life sometimes but I really relate to @Glorfindels feeling of "how on earth did I let it get this bad". I know that I can only look forwards and not back, but still, how could I have done this to my body.

Day 26

Breakfast:
Black coffee with almond milk
The rest of the calissons d’Aix (I couldn't resist)
Herbal tea

Lunch :
Water
Sugar free tonic
2 boiled eggs mashed with butter
Coffee

Snack:
30g Chaussée au moines (cheese)
Sugar free tonic water
Fizzy water

Supper:
Fromage blanc with redcurrant jelly
Sugar free tonic water

Okay. 1.2 does not agree with me!!
I've gone back to 0.6 tonight and will see how it goes. I've had a headache in the afternoon/evening the last 2 days, on and off nausea (I just nearly threw up my vitamin tablets ughhh!). I generally feel a bit scatty, not quite with it, and my reactions are slower. My youngest is poorly at the minute and needs his mum on top form. I've also got an awful productive cough which I've had for 4 weeks that has now started with a sore throat too. So I just need to minimise anything right now!
Damn it, it was all going so well! The appetite suppression is still working marvellously however so I shall just keep on. I'd be quite happy at 0.6 given its cheaper 🤣.
Sorry I haven't caught up yet. Just came to moan after my evening in a&e with my little sick note 🙈. I'll catch up properly tomorrow!

@Saxendastarter pictures from your trip look amazing! I'm glad to hear you're pulling back on work a bit despite your boss not sounding too happy about it. Weekends should be yours, and nice to hear you've got some more time planned in for walks.

I can really relate to @Glorfindels too on the how on earth did I let it get this bad. I actually used to compete in bodybuilding/powerlifting, was a personal trainer etc and I'm so mortified and embarrassed when I see people who haven't seen me since then. At 30kg heavier than I was then at my heaviest. I don't really know what happened, I guess between an abusive relationship and a depressive episode with COVID on top I just lost myself. I had a 10 minute wait before my swimming slot last night and stupidly took a video in the cubicle of me in my swimsuit and to say I am mortified is an understatement. It's been safely locked away in my private folder on my phone and I'm not going to look at it again for a couple of months.

I totally get how you're feeling in that sense about seeing your girls. It's layered even more with the fact you're in such a fatphobic country. That's tough. If she is as lovely as you say she is though, hopefully she won't judge you or make any comments but it's still a crappy feeling. I have to give myself the 'im not going to let my body image ruin the joy of the present moment' pep talk lol.

I upped my dose to 1.2 at the start of the week and it's really doing the trick. No awful side effects. I haven't been eating much during the day just fruit and a protein shake, I keep taking lunch to work and it ends up staying in the work fridge because I just can't eat it.

I'm still maintaining though, no weight change for the past 10 days. 😟 and have been experiencing quite a high heart rate consistently and even more so after exercise. Thinking I may be a tad dehydrated so I've upped my water intake.

Hopefully I'll see a loss this week. 🤞🏻

Hello! May I join? I was sad there wasn't a Saxenda thread when I started in March so I'm glad to see this one going strong.

I'm in my eighth week now and have lost 12lbs, I'm on the 1.8 dose. I'm trying to make the pens last as long as possible so only progressing once I feel I need to. I've not been very hungry but the food "chatter" has reappeared the last couple of days (that's such a good word for it!) and today I've eaten loads including a chippy tea and I feel (and look) massively bloated now - I suppose we have to learn our lessons don't we?

@Saxendastarter On feeling ashamed that willpower is not enough - I feel exactly the same. I find it helps to compare it to other addictions - no one would judge a smoker using nicotine patches to help them give up, on the contrary they'd be applauded for getting help. This is no different.