Defeated by fatness no more

[BreathingDeep]

Happy Monday!

Following my thread last week about how I, and so many of us, are feeling like we're defeated by our weight, here's a support thread for those of us who don't want stop ourselves from living the lives we want any more.

There were some amazing stories shared and so much honesty about how this is a struggle for so many of us. Here's the thread for anyone wanting to read:
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonable/4225173-Defeated-by-my-fatness-am-I-alone

I know that I am sick of feeling ashamed of myself. Sick of hiding away. Sick of feeling that I'm judged for my weight. Sick of feeling that I'm letting myself and my family down. Sick of feeling that my inside doesn't match the outside. Sick of living in the same few outfits because everything else is too tight or looks terrible. Sick of seeking solace in food that doesn't nourish me. Sick of treating myself badly.

If you feel the same, come and join us! Everyone will have their own journey, their own approach and that's fine - please, no criticism or judgement of anyone's plan. The main aim is that we all take steps, every single day, to make ourselves feel better about ourselves.

For me, that means today will include drinking water, taking a long lunch and having a dog walk with a friend (this NEVER happens because work always comes first) and sticking with my Cambridge plan.

How about you?

Thanks all. He's still poorly, they are testing for salmonella/e.coli. Fingers crossed he will be turning a corner soon.

As soon as he's better, I'll be back on to the running/walking/planning of meals and all of that.

Keep going everyone! Well done all.

Hi all. I posted when this first took off and in typical me style, disappeared.
I caught sight of myself earlier and just realised what I'm doing to my body. Especially in this hot weather.

Anyway, tomorrow is a new day and although I have a ton of snacks in the house I'm going to just go for it and track my calories.
Well done on all your hard work! Off to read back properly.

Welcome back @Treaclepie19 - we wouldn't be in this thread if we weren't somewhat inconsistent in our eating!

I find it really hard when there are holidays etc- it knocks me off course and then takes me ages to get back on track.

Thank you!
It's just so hard isn't it? It's half term for my 5 year old, I have an 8 month old also and we have an ongoing insurance claim because our car was hit by a drunk driver and it's just easy to turn to food.

Oh Treacle that's awful... when we've got stress it's so easy to come off the rails, don't I know it!

I did a run this morning, I went for week4 again because I knew it would be hard after over a week. And it was!
But I did it.

@Treaclepie19, lovely to see you back here. As we all know sometimes there's enough headspace for concentrating on our food choices and other times there isn't. Hopefully things settle soon.
@Roussette, well done on the run. I'm full of admiration as I am currently not doing any additional exercise. Hope your husband is feeling a little better today.
Weight creeping back down very slowly .Yesterday was a very carby day although I wouldn't say that I overate. Friday again tomorrow and my older DD is home from uni and wants meal out and drinks, also out tonight with DP. I hear that STS is the new lost a kg haha

Haha @Onesmallstep67 I hope it is as there is no way I am losing weight this week. I need a kick up the bum actually. My mum and stepdad moving in has really set me back. I think the excitement of actually spending proper time with each other, plus everywhere opening up, plus the sunshine has led me down a dark path littered with alcohol and carbs

Hi TreaclePie and welcome back. I'm a late joiner, but I love this thread. It feels less intimidating than some of the long running weight loss ones.

I'm a little bit frustrated this week. My weight has stayed the same, despite working out every day and sticking to the diet. However, I think there's a couple of things going on:

1. The working out will be damaging my muscles. This always happens when people start a new fitness regime. As I understand it, until the body gets used to it and the muscles gain strength, they're damaged, and the body tries to fix the damage by increasing inflammation, which causes water retention.

1. I think I'm fighting off a mild infection. I've had headaches for days, which is rare to unheard of for me, and I keep getting cramping pains in my stomach. I'm quite bloated (waist measurement is up 2cm), so again I think there's inflammation and water retention.

I am looking at things positively though - I would have liked to be a bit closer to my goal weight, but I need to be thinking about maintenance now I'm so close. The exercise should in theory be increasing my metabolism, which should make it easier to maintain the weight loss and - most importantly - eat carbs again.

I'd kill for a pizza.

Hi all, glad to see you are still here. I had a few weeks off due to an operation on my hand. I went back to class tonight and am somewhat relieved that I only put 3lbs on. So back on it tomorrow, hoping for a great loss next week.

Let’s all hope for great losses next week!

I’m going to feel very unmotivated if I stay the same again.

One funny thing about weight loss - I keep feeling weird lumps and bumps on my body and thinking, “what the hell is that??” Then I realise it’s my ribs / intestines / whatever else is in my breasts besides fat.

I’m not used to feeling anything except insulation...

I'm afraid I'm on the padded insulation body still !

But.... I have weighed this morning and have lost 1.5lbs which I am delighted about given the up and down of this last week and lack of meaningful exercise.

I am determined to build on this for next week, and hope my DH will be sharing a meal with me soon, I'm sick of salads!

Amazing @Roussette, that's very impressive given the week you've had! I forgot to weigh myself this morning, which probably shows where my head is at. Going to try and fit in a long walk today then a run tomorrow. I also think I am all drunk out now - a friend came round on Wednesday with a jeroboam of champagne and I think that was the final straw lol! So will be limiting the alcohol over the weekend and focusing a bit more on my diet.

Fantastic result Rousette, that must be so cheering after what sounds like a tiring week!

I'm jealous of your champagne slyv, sounds like a fun evening.

I'm still in awe of everyone who can be bothered to go out running. I'm so lazy about exercise - I just hate it unless it's got a purpose (e.g. gardening, cycling to do an errand etc). I like HIIT because it's short and I can tick it off like a chore (which it absolutely is).

Oh, and I don't want to give the impression that you can actually see my ribs! I'm still very well upholstered. It's just sometimes when I stretch I can feel the bones and it's a bit alarming. If a thin person read this I'm sure they'd think I was mad.

Friday check in. I’m 2lbs down from last Friday which also means I am 2lbs down on my June starting weight. It’s taken me back down to where I was a couple of weeks ago. I need a concerted effort now to make the push down into the next stone bracket. Fingers crossed that will be by next Friday. At least I will be off the booze tonight as I have to collect DD from the train station around 10pm, home for the weekend. I rather sadly tucked into my skinny burger last night - think burger and salad, no bun or fries- and thought- well this is the future if I ever hope to keep at a reasonable weight 😭

Brilliant result onesmallstep, you must be delighted.

I know what you mean about the low carb sadness. I used to eat far too much bread and it always made me feel a bit crap, but by god I miss the taste.

onestep well done you!

It looks like DH has turned a corner, he ate plain white fish and mashed potato tonight, first proper meal in 8 days these tummy bugs are awful.

So now it's me me me and getting back on track whilst I sip this delicious glass of Rosé wine

I bloody love bread sooooo much but it's all or nothing for me because it is a weakness

Hope your DH continued with his recovery over the weekend @Roussette.

I'm feeling a bit more with it this week, stayed relatively sensible over the weekend, fitted in a bit of exercise and have eaten well. This weekend is going to be a difficult one as I'm having a big post-lockdown family reunion party in the garden on Saturday. We have family coming over from England that we haven't seen in a year and a half, and who missed a big family funeral at Christmas so there is a lot of catching up to be done. And it will all be done over copious amounts of food and drink. So trying to focus on being extra good during the week so I can enjoy myself without guilt.

Thanks sylv tests are through and he's got/had campylobacter.. food poisoning. No idea how or why. He has a good day then is back to square one, feel for him.

Go for it with the party... I think if I can be good during the week, it makes me feel better about eating what I want and drinking more than a thimblefull of wine!

Hi everyone, hope you are all enjoying the sun, such a welcome change from all the rain in May.
I'm doing my usual +/- 2lbs. Went up briefly at the weekend after too much food and drink but back down again by this morning. Not sure how to break the cycle apart from having a weekend where I don't overeat !! My family party which I was aiming to lose at least a stone by has been brought forward by a month to mid July so virtually no chance now to lose more than at most half a stone, and I won't even manage that if I keep in this cycle. I have been around the same weight for about 3 weeks now I think. Good news I guess is that my mind is still willing and I haven't given up.
Sounds like your husband has had a horrible time Roussette , he must be feeling very drained. Here's hoping that he's seen the worst of it now.

Good news I guess is that my mind is still willing

And me! And that's half the battle! I also had the dream about my flat stomach again, it was so lovely

Same here, I had a wobble last week and I expect have gained slightly but seem to have found it relatively easy to slip back into a positive mindset about it. I think it is actually more than half the battle in a way, because it means commitment over the longer term rather than a crash diet that will bring great results over a couple of months but that isn't sustainable. And I keep telling myself I am aiming for healthy rather than slim.

@Onesmallstep67 I have a big family party on Saturday and am nowhere near my target weight for that so join the club lol!

Had a really rubbish run today, could only do about 8 mins before I had to stop and walk. Kept going but walked lots. Not sure what was going on there, just an off day I think. But at least it was half an hour where I wasn't sat on the sofa!

Hi all. Back in the game today- I was too scared to weigh myself on Monday so waiting until today. 13st 12.8 which I'm ok with as only 1.5 pounds on.

Well done for all the losses. I'm going to make a concerted effort over the weekend!!

I want to stay on it from now until end of July as also have a family party, and my sister in law always comments on my weight so want to piss her off . If I lose a pound a week I might be 12.5...

Weigh in day for me today, and after a couple of weeks of stalling at the same weight I'm down another kilo, thank god. Today's measurements:

Weight: 76kg
BMI: 25.1 (tantalisingly close!)
Waist: 86cm

If I have another good few days I'll be in the healthy BMI range next week, for the first time in 20 years. Christ. I think it's going to take a while to undo any damage I've done to my body, if it can be done at all. I really hope I haven't done anything permanent. I do keep having some weird symptoms these days, but it could just be ageing I suppose.

Due to frequent social occasions we're pretty much in the maintenance phase now, as most weekends we're seeing friends. I'm making up for it in the week with two days of 20+ hour fasts and roughly 800 calories, plus at least 4 HIIT or yoga workouts.

I think the workouts are starting to pay off (I'm looking more toned and building muscle), though maybe I've just sweated the weight off this week - it's been getting up to 35 degrees here every afternoon. Still, it's a pleasant, dry heat and we stay inside for the worst of it. I have to go out and hose down my poor chickens though.

@TheLeadbetterLife so, so close! That must really give you an extra incentive.

I'm weighing tomorrow. I didn't weigh last week as I forgot but did sneakily step on the scales yesterday. I was 1lbs up which isn't too bad considering. Going to have a long walk today then a run tomorrow and hopefully that will set me up well for the weekend.

sylv my two DDs are runners and they get days like that. Where they can't even do half of what they normally do. I think it's to do with sleep patterns, hormones, food intake, anything really. Hopefully next time will be for you.

Personally, I've gone right off running at the moment, unless I go about 8am I just find it uncomfortable if it's warm. So instead I have been walking 5km and I have loved it as there's some fabulous walks round here.

I did sneak on the scales this morning even though official weigh in is on a Friday and I am gobsmacked that it looked like I have lost 2lbs which I haven't done more than 1lb or 1.5lbs in 8 weeks. But I will see what tomorrow says. I think it's due to worry about DH who is now nearly back to normal.

I am finding it particularly hard at the moment because summer means barbecues which means rosé wine sat in the sun. [whock]