I'm really fucking fat :( If you are too, what's your plan?

[MummyPigsBigTummie]

Last year I was gutted at being 13st.

I'm now 17st 2lbs.

I've done nothing but emotionally eat all year, fuelled by depression and anxiety. To the point where I've become mildly agoraphobic.

This has got to be the year I turn my life and poor eating habits around.

I don't know where to start.

I know the title is quite harsh but I've been telling myself it's not so bad.

But it is.

I'm fat. Very fat. And I need to correct it.

@MummyPigsBigTummie I feel exactly the same! And tbh I feel slightly better that there's other people who are like me! I used to be a size 8 lovely hair make up always done then I had a baby a year later I ballooned and I haven't stopped growing since! I eat because I'm bored, when I'm watching tele, or just because. It is absolutely disgusting!

I hate going out and if I do I keep my head down at all times because I don't want anyone to see what I look like now! I'm so ashamed!

I just don't know how to get out of this cycle! I haven't been in a relationship or anything close to one in 5 years I'm that embarrassed!

@KateGrey four miles is really good going when you are carrying all that extra weight. You probably burned a lot of calories doing that. If you keep it up doing 4-5 miles every day, you'll see a difference.

Does anyone have a Fitbit? Is it accurate with the calories burned bit? I've ate around 1600 calories and Fitbit says I've burnt 2000 today, so I should be in a calorie deficit and therefore losing weight yeah?

Also, I used the NHS BMI calculator earlier and near the bottom of the page if you scroll down it has a 12 week weight loss plan, its a really useful place to start for a guideline!

I just checked my bmi on the NHS site
Overweight obviously but it says my ideal lower weight is 7st 13lb at 5ft 5

8 STONE!

I mean that’s ridiculous I would be a size 6 or under at that weight

Can I join a bit late?

Lost a lot of weight (think 9 stone) then gained a couple due to stress etc and laziness then lost 2 again. Today I weighed myself and I've gone up a full stone since about March last year. I feel enormous and need to shift at least that 1 stone extra if not an extra one.

I'm going to start walking/running again but like the op, my social anxiety and (unspoken of to anyone) crippling depression is just telling me it's not worth it. I know what to do I just struggle with the actually doing it.

Can I join please?

Weighed in today at 15st 1lb. This time last year weighed 12st 6lb and was unhappy then and desperately unhappy now. Would like to get back to my wedding weight of 10st 13lb. So 3 stone to loose.

Starting off by cutting out booze and chocolate. Went on the treadmill today but only managed 15 minutes of walking/ running before being a sweaty jiggly mess.
Going to try and walk/ run every other day. I've got young kids who don't sleep much so don't have much energy for going out to exercise classes etc in the evenings. But to be honest it's the comfort eating I need to sort more than anything.

@carbsnomarbs I did that too - at 5’9” my healthy weight range is between 8st13 and 12st1lb

I haven’t been under 9 stone since childhood. I was seriously ill when I was 19 and lost a lot of weight and went down to about 10stone. I looked v thin at that point, so under 9 stone would be all wrong on me.

I was 15st13lb last Saturday and I am aiming for an interim goal of 12st and then will see how I look/ feel then. I have a vague ultimate goal of 11st in mind - about 1/2 st above the mid point of my healthy range

I ordered a big shop last night of healthy food - it arrived this morning!

Grabbed a smoothie and banana for breakfast - then a cheesy pasta from work 😞 with chips, for lunch (small portion though)
Came home with a plan for a super healthy dinner casserole of med veg to find that DP had just scoffed pie and chips and wasn’t wanting any dinner!

(I don’t eat portions big enough to Justify doing it) so instead I ate an entire family bag of Cadbury buttons and felt awful!!!

Eventually made myself some spinach and eggs but I mean/ it’s nit going to erase all the chocolate

FFS, why can’t I stop?
It’s a total sugar addiction
I am horribly addicted to sugar!

Plus I think I’m getting this virus going around

I haven’t hated my body this much in a long time and I know I’m just piling it on

I'd like to join too please. I don't want to weigh myself but I imagine I am around 17 st 😱 I hit a milestone birthday this year so I feel now is the time. I have started to make a list of things I would like to do should I manage to shift a bit as an incentive. Things like...swimming, cycling, massage, ice skating, sex (I'm single). I'be downloaded mfp and aiming for 1500 calories a day.

Good luck everyone - we can do it !!

After 8 yrs of yo-yo dieting I was 17st 9.

I have lost and regained the same 5 stone three times.

In September last year my GP referred me to the Bariatric service.
I attended 6 months of dietary and psychological education.

I started to read the science around obesity. Not from the diet industry who make millions out of our constant pointless diets but from University College London's centre for obesity research.

The statistical reality is horrific.

1:240 women will succeed in dieting from a BMI of 35 back to a healthy weight.
Only 1 : 644 women with a BMI of 40 and above will achieve this.

Of this tiny tiny percentage . 78% will put it all back on + 20% more within five years.

I read up on bariatric surgery. The pros and the cons. The scientific reality meant that I had a much much higher chance of dying young from a stroke or heart disease than I would from the operation.
The NHS pathway has excellent long term sustained weight loss over five, ten and fifteen years.

I had a Sleeve gastrectomy on the 4th Dec. I now way 15 stone 6 and can walk without pain. I walk 6km a day now. 4 weeks ago I couldn't walk 50 steps without having a rest.

I am off the diet merry go round and wish I had done this 5 yrs ago. There is a tool out there that can help.

But MrDarcyWillBeMine eating a smoothie and a banana for breakfast is just going to send your insulin levels sky high, then it will drop a few hours later along with your blood sugar causing you to crave more sugar.

Smoothies aren't great or particularly healthy. A protein based breakfast like some eggs would be far better.

Anyway, tomorrow is another day. Start afresh

Well that’s cheered us all up font. I’m sure we’re all feeling really positive we can succeed now

Welcome new joiners, good luck all
Of us, we can totally nail this.

Day 3 down, under calorie goal but only 7k steps. Letting myself off for today as my first grandchild was born 😀

@Worriedmum99 congratulations on your first grandchild. Hopefully mother and baby are doing well.

Congratulations Worriedmum99

@MrDarcyWillBeMine. Don’t be too hard on yourself, it’s incredibly hard to just one day change what your doing and never slip up again. I aim for having more good days then bad and don’t focus on the bad as that what makes you give up

I was overweight from age 10 to 20 then lost almost 30 kg (4-5 stone?) by age 21 and had somewhat of a yoyo weight from age 21-26 but since fall of '17 I've been gaining a lot of weight and more than what I lost those 6 year ago.
Probably around 15 stone now. I've also been feeling agoraphobic. I don't want people to see me, I feel ashamed for putting on essentially 30 kg in a year.
Also we're ttc and I'm sure being overweight isn't helping.

Just haven't had any motivation to lose weight. I keep eating like it's a bottomless pit. Even if my stomach aches I've kept on eating.

Well anyways. My DP got me an indoors exercise bike for Christmas (I asked for it) and today I used it for the first time. Went 10 km on it and feeling pretty proud. Also making sure not to eat junk and drink only water or tea.

I'm also very fucking fat.
But I don't want to be any longer.

Forgive me for not reading all previous 218 messages.

I feel fucking fat too OP and have also gained a lot of weight over the past 18-24 months due to mild depression and ennui (feeling flat rather than utterly depressed - but enough of a mood bummer to comfort eat)

My joints are starting to ache now and my stomach is big enough to get in the way when I am bending at the 'waist'. I am with you on the mildly agoraphobic - I have been making excuses to avoid social occasions

I plan to go very low carb - following Richard Mosley's Mediterranean style eating plan (in the 8 week sugar diet). Whether I will actually do it is another thing - I am pretty bloody weak and ineffectual at following through

Just read Fonto's post. I have to admit I have lost and regained 3-4 stone on about five occasions during my adult life

Thanks guys - appreciate it!

Good luck for tomorrow everyone xx

Weighed myself a few hours ago, 18st 1.6lb

I'm 5'4" if I manage to stand upright

For nearly two years I've been incredibly poorly even for MY standards (chronic illnesses, mental health problems)

I stopped going out of the house much, except to do the school runs

Lived on Lidls cinnamon buns, pizza, chocolate

I've put on about 3 stone

It's very much linked to my mental health. And most of my life I've overeaten, but I do have periods where I go the other way, it's usually in response to severe emotional trauma.

I can tell you this, I can tell the GPs, but I've never received support for it.

If you are insulin resistant a hi fat low carb diet doesn’t work. You need low fat low carb and to leave 5 hours between meals with no snacking. This is a metabolic diet and you feel better after a couple of days because every time you eat you are releasing insulin. By fasting insulin is not being produced.

Well I started on Tuesday, have dusted down my cross trainer and used it each night. I’m trying to eat within the 16:8 window and lots of veg, lots of water, I have stopped having Pepsi max and now smaller portions.

So far so good. Starting weight 17st 3lb on New Year’s Day and this morning 16st 13lb.. I imagine it’s water but it was nice to see the 16st not 17st.

I’m 5ft 9inch, 13 years ago I joined a gym really disappointed with myself as I weighed 14stone and I wanted to get down to 12.5. That never happened, got married and 4 children later!!

Just need to keep going.. good luck everyone

Day 1 done. Didn't do too badly on the food front, but I did my usual of snacking in the evening.
We still have a mountain of Christmas chocolates in the house, and I'm finding it difficult to resist them completely.
I did manage 10,000 steps though which is a big improvement