You just moan away Mrs JC. You are amongst friends .
I think you've done really well to put on only 20-21 lbs. I put on about 16lbs with dd and had lost it again within 3 weeks (obviously I've put it all, and more, back on since .
DottyDot, that book sounds interesting, I think I'll have to have a look.
I read a good book a few years ago called:
Eating your heart out, by Julia Buckroyd.
It was all about the relationships between mothers and daughters, one or other of whom had issues with food.
In it was the quote that I carry around in my filofax to this day:
"None of us can be responsible for anyone else's happiness. We can only be responsible for ourselves."