I'm overweight by about 2 stone. I've been this way since I was about 17, I can't see it ever changing. Sometimes I'm fit, sometimes I'm not, sometimes I eat well, sometimes I don't... but I'm nearly always hovering around the 2 stone overweight thing.
Why can't I just accept this?
I was at a friend's house today. She had a box of French Fancies - I haven't had cake in about 2 months, but I fancied one (ha), so had one. Then had another one. As she said "they are like mouthfuls of air... I could eat a whole box"... and she COULD eat a whole box, guilt free, worry free, without thinking about it - she's a size 8, she's never had to worry about her weight or food, or what people think about what she eats.
And that made me really sad. I sat there a) feeling guilty about the first one, and then b) feeling ridiculous about the second one... assuming that everyone was judging me badly for having no self control and having another one. She ate 4 in the end, aside from me noticing, I bet no one else did.
Do people who have no food issues even notice what other people eat? Or is it just my fucked up relationship with food?