I need help, keep caving in and calling it quits but I can't carry on like this.

[Dothefridgesquat]

I'm probably the best part of 17 stones, since the beginning of May id started overhauling my diet.
I was doing really well, not focusing on exercise, primarily on my diet, using SW recipes etc. I definitely lost weight, my jeans became looser etc.

I was doing so well until 2 weeks ago. I went to a party and ate a load of crap and from that moment on I e just thought, fuck it!! I'll eat what I want. No one had commented on my weight loss either which by 8 or 9 weeks in Thought people would notice but no one seemed to.

I seem to put weight on so easily! Taking it off is another matter entirely, it's so difficult and takes forever.

Im so fed up and sickened off with myself, after less than two weeks I think I've probably put most of the weight back on grrrrrrrrr

Why not do exercise?

With a regular exercise pattern you could have fallen off the wagon ( as you have) but by continuing exercising, not put much,if any,back on.

Such a shame nobody noticed. Can you turn this setback into a comeback?

I can I only try suppose. I need to do something about it. I had started doing some toning exercises I'd found in a SW magazine. I'll have to start walking etc

When you've got a bit of momentum the weight coming off helps to motivate you. To start again after a blip you have to accept, actually welcome, the pain of not eating something that you want to eat. Two weeks ago you didn't want to eat that biscuit because you had momentum. Now you want to because you feel like you've had a blip so it makes no difference.

Even if it's just putting ever other biscuit back into the tin and not eating it - you've got to start somewhere. Is it Gillian Riley who talks about it being essential to experience moments of really really wanting to eat, and making yourself not do it? Someone does and it makes sense. Weight loss that only works because you've got momentum or you've substituted something else and don't actually want the junk food is less sustainable.

I'm talking to myself a bit here - major blip and lots went back on. Trying to say no to some junk individually without feeling that I have to get back on a wagon. There is no wagon, just lots of individual decisions, some of which are hard, but get easier with practice.

I've done it before and I was down to a size 10/12. Then I had DD (2 years ago on Saturday had PND didn't have a lot of help and just getting through the day was a struggle. Once she started getting into a routine, crisps and chocolate when she'd gone to bed were like a reward, they made me feel better.

I can't tell you how sluggish and sickly I feel after these couple of weeks, I'm not eating it because I want it even, I'm eating it because it's there.

I agree with the having momentum comments. I always feel good about myself after not giving into a food craving, it makes me feel stronger.

People probably had noticed your weight loss but it is such a minefield to comment on someone's weight they thought better of saying anything.

Put the 'falling off the wagon' behind you, it happens don't let it derail all your good work and continued efforts.

Please can I join you? I weigh around the same as you and have just ordered a Fitbit to up my movement. I also started couch25k a few months ago which I'm finding difficult to do now the kids are off school. That will be a priority in September. I need to buy scales... I eat junk instead of meals sometimes which is ridiculous. I have to sort myself out

Yes teddybear it would be awesome to have a buddy!! I need some scales too, let's crack this together. it is difficult when you've got kids I completely get you with that. I have no excuse really as I live in the countryside and used to walk everywhere!! 4 miles to work do a ten hour shift and then sometimes I would walk the 4 miles back at least 5 times a week lol!! I'd love to have that much energy again!

OP are you me?! We're around the same weight (mine slightly more), my DD is 2 on Saturday and I'm a junk food reward type person as well! DD's 2 hour lunchtime nap is when I scoff all the lovely yummy food that I bought myself!

I'm only one week 2 (I'm low carbing) and I have a long way to go, but just wanted to say good luck

*on week 2!

Also meant to say that this is the 4th attempt to lose some weight since DD came along to get back into the pre-baby size 14 wardrobe! I start, last 2 weeks max, give up and binge and then gain more and more. I'm hoping I can finally end this vicious cycle.

Hahaha!! Wow, we still have two hour naps as well and that's when I scoff too hehe. I'm gonna have to get back on the band wagon, I had been feeling so much better in myself, weight loss aside.

I know it's cringey but I really recommend going to the SW groups. If I slip off the wagon the thought of being weighed a few days later really stops me from entering "fuck it" mode. If I didn't go I would continue to eat like a pig