Officially my heaviest and time to change. Anyone with me?

[DreamingOfADifferentMe]

Hi all,

Well, having just returned from a gorgeous week's holiday, I decided to take the plunge and step onto the scales. Bloody hell.

I'm officially the heaviest I've ever been. I look awful. And I'm desperate to change. I've spent the last few days reading threads on here that I think will inspire me and I'm determined to make a change.

I have a number of milestones to get to, including a holiday in October, but the big one in my head is going to see the GP in a few weeks' time for a repeat prescription for my contraceptive pill. Last year, she made some reference about my weight as they may not have been allowed to prescribe it, given my high BMI. She did, and prescribed me a year's worth, and they're nearly gone. Have I lost weight? Have I heck - I'm actually heavier, and I can't bear the idea of going back and having the same utterly humiliating conversation.

So, I'm just debating the best approach. I know low/no carbs works really well for me, though I can struggle to stick with it, but that's what I'm going for initially.

This morning I weighed in at 15st 11, and I'm just 5ft 4. I'm a size 18. This cannot be who I am. I am not the woman who looks back at me in the mirror.

My mission is to shift, ideally, around 3st initially. I know that I look and feel great at 12st something, and even though I'll be far from a size 10 skinny minnie, I will feel fantastic. Then, when I get to that point, we'll see.

However, when there's such a long road ahead, I know I get easily defeated. So, does anyone fancy a hand to hold along a similar path? I'm happy to give tonnes of support and will cheer folk on, anyone fancy returning the favour?

Hope you make it through too Wardeness. My gym had a creche that I can put both DCs in for an hour in the morning. I might do that as if I wait until after DH gets home I can see my motivation flagging.

I have to do all my workouts at home, I'd love to join a gym. A DH that works very long hours plus a home schooled SN DS makes gym visits difficult!

This generally means I don't workout as I find lots of excuses.

Yeah that sounds like you're kept pretty busy ward! Have you tried the 30 day shred? It's a killer but effective and only 20 minutes long.

I have the DVD...gathering dust.

Got to level 2 and saw great results. Feel an idiot not keeping it up.

I'll join the ranks of exhausted parents. My youngest had a really disturbed night and the combination of that and my back pain meant I barely slept so I'm working this morning with bags under my eyes. Luckily, I work at home so noone needs to see me...

The Shred is meant to be incredible, but I know it would bugger up my knees - I'm a bit of a wreck, though everything will be helped enormously by losing weight I'm sure. We're members of a really lovely health club and I don't use it enough, other than for the kids as they have swimming and tennis lessons there, though I have been using the outdoor pool which is bloody lovely. Back to it, I think...

About to have breakfast, though toying between eggs and yoghurt. What's your plan for today, everyone?

Too much planking in level 2 for me to cope with! I've just negotiated a deal with DS1 that he will go to the creche if we can build a den when we get home.

Thanks Dreaming - you're so right, I do have that feeling about 'last chance saloon' too. I need to (a) stop doing it half heartedly (e.g. exercising, but no change to diet) (b) this time when it comes off it's staying off.

Feeling much better - healthier and happier - just from taking control since Monday. The joke of it is that sticking to the plan isn't actually that difficult once I get going.

Today I had a banana for breakfast and just had a salad with smoked salmon and one piece of brown seeded bread for lunch. Really tasty, 500 calories.

Maybe chicken and veg or salad for dinner. Chicken breast well done with no oil or anything in a grill pan is absolutely delicious, by far the best way to eat it (diet or not!) - lovely barbecue type flavour.

Gym this evening. Good luck with the tiredness, it can be a killer, I know!

Well done vida I'm now craving smoked salmon. Will put it on the shopping list for next week.

Have been to the gym and glad I did as already longing for my bed. Definitely would have bailed out if I'd left it until tonight. Have had a couple of snacks to see me through today (handful of hazelnuts and a slice of fruit loaf) but I'm still well within my MFP allowance for the day and managed to stave off the temptation of biscuits/chocolate/crisps my usual go to when I feel shit foods. Chicken salad for dinner tonight and most definitely an early night.

Thanks Vida, I'm just about powering on through! Sounds like we're in the same mindset about this time. I'm just so bored of starting so well and it petering out within days or weeks and putting back on everything that I lost. I don't understand why this is the one thing that defeats me time and time again, but no more. This time, we'll crack it, I'm sure of it.

So, what are people's goals?

I weighed in on Monday at 15st 11 and I'd love to get down to:

14st 9 by end of August which is a loss of 16lbs

13st 7 by my holiday in October which is a loss of 32lbs (which works out at just under 2.5lbs per week)

12st something by Christmas...?

What about you all?

Bravo Rum, fab work in steering clear of the usual culprits when you're knackered and amazing work in going to the gym - that's seriously impressive!

Please could I join in? Monday morning works perfectly for me.

I'm pretty disgusted with my body and the heaviest I've ever been. I've got so that I find it difficult to look at myself, I don't even recognise the reflection. None of my clothes fit.

I've told myself in the past that I won't change what I eat, but will just do more exercise. It doesn't work. I need to change how I eat too!

Another exhausted parent here, and working full-time. I need to change the cycle of collapsing exhausted onto the sofa at 7pm and reaching for wine.

I think 2lb a week would be a good rate of loss for me

Currently 11 stone (154lb)
Goal weight 9 stone 4lb (130lb)

According to my calcs I'll get there by mid-October...

Please join us satin. The more the merrier.

Thanks dreaming, the creche at the gym is pretty good and it's good practice for DS2 being left with someone else before my return to work in September.

Goal wise I think I would like to have lost a stone by the time DS1 Starts school in the middle of August. Hopeful of a couple of decent loses at the start. So 16 st 13lbs

I would like to return to work in the clothes I was wearing pre pregnancy so I think that's about 16 st 5lb by the end of September.

By Christmas I would like to be 14 st 7lb which would put me back in a size 16.

That's just over 3 stone over the next 5 months.

Last time I seriously lost weight I hit at brick wall at about the 12 stone mark. I don't think I look too bad at that size but think ideally around the 11 stone mark is my end goal and would put me at a healthy bmi.

I'm being brave and signing in.

I've been ignoring my weight - in some ways it's the least of my issues - for far too long. I have a chronic illness (two actually, but who's counting :o), as well as various mental health issues. But I can't keep saying "not now" forever!

Needless to say I will have to be very careful how I do this - the days of joining a gym are long gone since I got diagnosed with CFS/ME and POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome). I just have to find other ways round it.

I am starting to do my own Graded Exercise Therapy, which is controversial to say the least, but having had a lot of preparation I feel ready to attempt it. I have a mini pedal thing as we can't fit in/afford an exercise bike. I am starting at 1 minute a day on it (embarrassing :(), then I have to increase it by 20% each week.

I had to have a treadmill ECG test the other week and it was utterly humiliating, seeing just how little I could do of it - I can walk at a gentle pace pretty much like anyone else, but if it even remotely gets my heart racing then I struggle instantly. It was a major kick up the fat arse.

Anyway. So I'm fuzzpig, and I'm roughly 18st, although I don't have my own scales. Size 20ish anyway. I'll shut up now and catch up on the thread. :)

Gah! I caved! The park was huge and by the time we'd walked back through to the car park I was flagging and had a sodding Reese's peanut bar!

No lunch today but dinner will be chicken wraps with tzatziki and salad.

Rum you have shamed me into making sure I exercise tonight. Shred then yoga. Maybe.

Me too please! I have 11lbs I'd like to lose before my holiday in September. I am pretty much plodding on using MFP and my knowledge of WW from when I used to do it before and have already lost 5lbs (I had 16lbs to lose) but can feel bad habits slipping back... Damn those treats that are around!

Waves at Satin and fuzzpig

Dreaming I lost a lot of inches after the first 10 days on level 1 of the shred. I wept after the first time. Cried like a baby with relief that it had ended and I'd actually finished it. I also threw up a little. I'm very unfit.

Waves at cjt too

I started Shred (I'm GREAT at starting things...)
I got to Day 6.

To be fair I enjoyed it (as long as the sound was off) but I was trying to do it whilst dealing with a very sick and high-maintenance baby and I had to constantly pause it to go attend to her. It just didn't work for me at that time. This thread might just encourage me to give it another go.

Then I need other threads to encourage me to do New York City Ballet, Charlotte whatsherface from TOWIE, Natalie Cassidy, Davina, Carmen thingy the supermodel one, Coronation Street Funk Fit, Jade Goody, and the million other exercise DVDs in my collection that are mostly still in the wrapping!!

I have No More Trouble Zones too but I haven't actually tried it yet.

Mu don't really want to think of goals in weight terms as it overwhelms me what a huge mountain I have to climb so my goal is to actually do 30 whole days of the shred

I! Wtf is Mu?!

Hello coming late to the party but may I join?

I was 15 stone and a half in early April, but am now 13 stone 12 and looking and feeling so much better - but want to continue to lose another 2 stone to be within healthy range for my just-shy-of-5'8 frame. Not lost anything for a couple of weeks largely as I have let my mindful eating habit slide and have been hitting the crisps and I don't want to lose the ground I have gained so I could do with some general company and encouragement. In return I promise relentless positivity!

I have always been quite active and currently do at least 5 hours of yoga (some energetic, some meditative) per week, plus walk or cycle to most places, and go kayaking once or twice a week. I've noticed since a shrinking of upper body - arms and waist - since including the kayaking I expect it burns some calories. The yoga has made a MASSIVE difference to my strength and muscle tone and I would thoroughly recommend it to anyone.

I think generally mindful eating with a touch of 5:2 is my best bet for weightless in a sustained way. I find calorie restricting on an ongoing basis very difficult and leads to gorging, am vegan so low carb isn't going to be much fun/possible to sustain in any way - there's only so much avocado a girl can eat.

Vicky you shouldn't spam people who are trying to support each other. I've reported your post to MNHQ

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