Post of shame alert
Let me start by saying that I know this is bad. I am aware how out of control my eating has become and I plan to something about it.
I have spent the last 2 weeks eating every imaginable type of junk food, takeaway, convenience food and sweet food all washed down with lots of alcohol and lattes. I don't know why it happened in such spectacular form (I kind of do, it's been very stressful here) and for such an extended period of time, but I know I have to stop. But the weird thing is, I really don't want to. I would happily continue even though I feel and look awful.
And when I say awful, I mean awful. I am so bloated that it hurts to close my jeans properly and my face is so fat. I have a lovely new roll of fat that seems to be some sort of lard equator circling my waist. I dread bending over in case my trousers rip and I have haunches like a cow just above my hips - it's like compressed fat that every top clings too and draws attention to. I am a bloody mess.
But out of the disaster that is my current state comes my plan. I am having a No-Vember. No is for no excuses, no cheating, no falling off the plan, no letting this get any worse. I'm going to do weight watchers as I have all the stuff here and I kind of know what I'm doing, I just need to stick to it. And DH is doing it with me as he has been my partner in eating crap crime so we will be supporting each other.
We start tomorrow as it's a bank holiday here and we have a few things planned with the kids. We will do it for the entire month of November and see how we get on. I need to start taking action about this before it gets wildly out of hand.