Hi all,
Been away for the week end for my Grandads post funeral thanksgiving service. Diet went off the rails. I hope I curtailed it enough to maintain this week. Will see when I weigh in
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I'd definitely throw a party if ever I got into the 10 stones
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I was looking at alot of old pictures of me when I was away at the week end which were my Grandads. There are pictures of me around 13/14 years old and I look, for me, lovely and slim (I think I was a size 12 at the age, which meant I still had a bit of wobble but looked healthy and normal) and then all the pictures of me older than this age range from me being a size 14 - size 20ish. It suddenly dawned on me. My weight issues started when I was around 15 and I went on a disastrous foreign exchange. The girl I stayed with never ate anything and I was starving the whole time. The meals they did give me were pretty yucky although in desperation I ate them! But I never knew when I was next going to get a meal and got alot of stomach aches from being so hungry. Every night I'd be in bed and have a cereal bar (I bought a stash in my luggage in case of emergencies) and it would be the highlight of my day (I didn't like it there at all). Since then I've had a constant worry about when I will next be able to eat and worry about being somewhere and not being able to eat and panic about it so over eat to compensate. I still do this now and eat when I'm not that hungry as I don't know when I'll next get the chance and I know I'll be hungry by the time I know I can eat IYKWIM. I sort of knew this before but looking at the pictures made it clear. I don't know exactly how to get over this but it feels like a bit of a eureka moment. There, hope you haven't fallen asleep and
for you to get to the end of that!
Hope you all have had a good week end. 80 happy birthday to you . Sounds like a lovely week end.
steppe it's a good idea getting those jeans - I got some size 16 jeans from debenhams a few months ago despite them being a bit tight in the tum as the size above were a bit big. They now fit like a glove and are my best fitting jeans at the minute. Gives you something to immediately aim for and see the results easily as you do lose. FWIW my belt last year was pretty much on one of the loosest settings. A couple of weeks ago I had to get DH to poke new holes in to make it smaller as the smallest hole was too big. It's moments like that which are good 
IMST what play are you painting the set for?