So fat and ugly I don't want to go on holiday.

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Oh god I need some serious advice. Last year I lost about 4 stone between April and November. Since November I have gained 5 stone and I feel awful. I hate myself for losing control in such a drastic way and because I hate myself so much I cant do anything but numb the pain with more food.

I am due to go on a beach holiday in July with my family and I can't face it. The thought of having to bare all on a beach makes me want to cry (or eat).

I know that I should be able to crash diet and lose almost 3 stone by then - not healthy but the only thing there is time for but I can't get started and I am getting more and more panicked by my lack of self control.

Sorry to be so pathetic.

Ooh, I LOVE the look of that No S Diet link - I am going to try that! Going on holiday in June and would love to lose 4 stone a few pounds before then and then keep going with it. Thanks for the linky!

OP, I really hope that you enjoy your holiday, regardless of how much you weigh. I totally understand your feelings that it will be hellish (I was nearly crying today thinking about swimwear... ) BUT enjoying yourself, having fun, relaxing on holiday with your family is probably just what you need.