Petrified about going back tomorrow

[mushmallow]

I've handed in my notice to leave at Christmas but I cannot articulate how much I hate it. Teaching is nothing but ticking boxes and bureaucratic bullshit.

I've spent the second week of half term not sleeping, anxiety taking over about going back. I've had dizzy spells, migraines and insomnia fuelled by anxiety about teaching.

I'm an experienced "outstanding" teacher but the environment is just awful.

Anyone else scared?

If you know you're going ad can afford it, get some time off sick.

You sound on the edge of a breakdown. Look a after yourself.

I had a breakdown at the end of September and have been signed off with anxiety and depression. I am due to see OH again soon, but am handing my notice in to leave at Christmas tomorrow.

After 14 years in the profession I have had enough. It's not the kids and behaviour rarely gets to me. It's the constant changes in curriculum, trying to do everything with nothing (our GCSE textbooks date from 1994 and there's no money for even classroom sets of new ones), increased class sizes, endless box ticking bullshit and management that constantly pile on more and more workload.

I have two young kids that need childcare and a life-limiting disability so this is pretty much the end of the road for me career wise. I think I am going to go into tutoring as I teach a shortage subject. DH is not happy about the loss in income but tough shit. I have stopped caring.