Probably my last night with my soul cat

[Furries]

And I just needed to put it out there how much I love him. He’s had health problems which have been well managed most of his life, but has gone downhill rapidly past couple of days.

Blood tests done this evening, vet let him come home with me as he’d be more comfortable. He’s back in the morning for an x-ray and scan - but I don’t think he’ll be coming home with me, the vet has prepared me for this.

But I’m not prepared! I mean, I will 100% do the right thing, but I was not expecting it this soon, he’s only 10. He’s curled up sleeping on my foot and my heart is slowly crumbling.

With everything else going on, I know this is a small thing - but don’t know how I’m going to cope with this.

Aaaaaaah! It’s absolutely, horribly heartbreaking. I know how it is to have a soul cat. It’s not a small thing. The pain will cut you in a thousand pieces but you can and will cope with it.
One day you will be able to remember all the happy memories.

It’s not a small thing at all, it’s a huge massive thing and it hurts so deeply.

You will get through it, you won’t want to but you will. I’m so sorry your both going through this.

@Hamsterian - thank you. He’s my first pet as an adult, and has seen me through a lot. He’s a grumpy sod with everyone else - he’s reduced large burly builders to seeking me out to move him as he wouldn’t let them get up the stairs. But he has nothing but plain, adoring love for me.

I’m staying on the sofa with him tonight (he’s always preferred sleeping downstairs). He’s got no appetite, so I can’t even feel like I’ve given him all his favourite things as a treat.

Sorry, just waffling on.

He’s a gorgeous boy and he looks very well cared for. 10 is no age to lose them.

@Fluffycloudland77 - thanks so much, really appreciate it. Just wanted to get some words out there to say how I feel as you’re right - this is a massive thing for me. Just don’t feel I can talk irl at the moment, too much going on for everyone.

Oh my word, he is beautiful. He looks so wise!
I’m so sorry that things are looking a bit final. It’s heartbreaking that we can’t keep them forever.

He is a gorgeous boy, what a grand cat 🦁 he looks very well cared for. Ten is no age but unfortunately sometimes it’s the roll of the dice. He will appreciate you sleeping downstairs.
It so upsetting when they don’t accept treats anymore...

What a beautiful cat. I've been in your position and it is absolutely heartbreaking. Feel free to talk here - we're listening.

Sending you hugs.

He's beautiful.
Have a peaceful night with him.

Really sorry to hear about your beautiful boy. Sending furry best wishes from one house to another ❤️

Wow, what a handsome chap.

Have you thought about giving the vets a miss tomorrow and just giving yourselves some precious extra days with him?

It's such an awful feeling. He looks gorgeous and I'm sure you've given him a great life.

He is beautiful. So sorry you're going through this tough time with your soul cat. It's really awful when they're so poorly. Please come here and talk to us. We're all here to support you. Will be thinking of you tomorrow

He's gorgeous, sure he's had the best possible life and knows he's loved. Hugs.

I'm so sorry you have to face losing your beautiful boy

He is a strikingly handsome fellow Furries.
He will always stay in your heart and you are a better person for the love you shared.
Letting him go whilst he still has dignity is the kindest thing you can do for him.
Sending

@TaterWaffle - thank you. OMG, you have summed him up perfectly, I have always described him as a wise and chilled old soul. That has given me a very small smile.

Unlike his younger brother who is a total comedian (same parents, different litters/years). Don’t even know how to try and deal with him, not been through this before, wtf is he going to think when his brother doesn’t come home?

@hamsterian - thank you again. Just want him to know that I’m right there with him tonight.

I'm so sorry that you are in this situation. I nearly lost my soul cat a few years ago from a UTI that got very serious very quickly. Each time he had an operation the vets would warn us that he probably wouldn't survive as he was do weak. I was in pieces.
Your boy is so handsome and regal, he looks very well loved. I'm sure he is very happy just being next to his person for the night.
to you.

Thank you everyone, I started to reply individually but I don’t think I can keep up with them sensibly.

Much as I’d love to have a few more days with him, I think he really needs these final tests ASAP. I don’t think they’re going to result in a different outcome, but leaving it longer for results wouldn’t be right - much as I want to keep him next to me forever.

My vet was the one who figured out his problem when others missed it. She’s been on this journey with us over the last 7 years and I know she’ll advise me properly. Plus he’s crying - which is not his nature at all. I don’t want him in any pain.

Fuck, this is shit.

Thank you again for your kindness to a complete stranger. Am going to sign off now for gentle cuddles with him. I would say please send him a virtual hug, but he’d probably swipe you in return 🐾💕

Thank you. Give him a cuddle from me. That would make my day. Do you mind if I nuzzle and sniff the top of his head?

I’ve been catless for too long. Mine was called Gazza Bazza. He was a right twat, but an excellent cuddler.

Sending lots of support. It’s such a horrible thing to have to do. We had to have our cat put to sleep about 18 months ago, he was only five but had kidney failure. It’s a crap decision but the best thing you can do for them. I was more upset when he died than I was when several different family members died. I still shed a tear now when I think about him. He looks loved and happy and that’s the best we can give them

Huge hugs, he's stunning x

Such a lovely boy. Have a gentle cuddly night with him. If only they arrived with us and left with us, like Philip Pullman's daemons.
Sending purrs and snuggles from our three. I know your heart is breaking.

I'm sorry, Furries.
I had to let my old boy go over a year ago (26 November 2018 to be precise.)
Although he was around 21 (a rescue cat), I still wasn't ready.
If you believe in such things, it may be a comfort to read 'Rainbow Bridge' when you feel able. It's very sad, but also comforting.