Probably my last night with my soul cat

[Furries]

And I just needed to put it out there how much I love him. He’s had health problems which have been well managed most of his life, but has gone downhill rapidly past couple of days.

Blood tests done this evening, vet let him come home with me as he’d be more comfortable. He’s back in the morning for an x-ray and scan - but I don’t think he’ll be coming home with me, the vet has prepared me for this.

But I’m not prepared! I mean, I will 100% do the right thing, but I was not expecting it this soon, he’s only 10. He’s curled up sleeping on my foot and my heart is slowly crumbling.

With everything else going on, I know this is a small thing - but don’t know how I’m going to cope with this.

@Fluffycloudland77 - don’t think I can put into words enough how much that means to me that you’ve reached out again - thank you so much.

Equally, to everyone else that posted messages that I haven’t acknowledged personally - thank you. Having those words of comfort meant the world to me and I’m sorry that I didn’t reply/ acknowledge your own stories - they all touched my heart and I send furry paw hugs to all of you.

So, today was the one week “anniversary”. I thought I’d.be in bits, but have held it together apart from 3 crying sessions (fairly short). I think trying to make sure his younger brother, plus my gorgeous dog, are looked after has made things a bit easier, but I’ve still lost my right arm.

Would like to think this thread might help people in the long run. Had cards from 2 people at the weekend which I saved for today. One with the lovely “you did the kindest thing today” message and the other with “I stood by your bed (btw replace whine with meow)”.

I completely and utterly miss my chunky gorgeous handsome boy - but I know I did everything for him that I possibly could.

Aside from that, I truly hope that everyone here is staying safe and staying home. This is a totally unreal situation, but the best thing we can do to keep all we love (human or furry/feathered/etc) is to isolate as much as possible.

Furry paw fist bumps to all

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@ItsABitOfAShitFightMate - and thank you too, think I must have been typing when you posted and just didn’t clock it. FTY is more subdued than usual - he’s normally a complete comic who makes me laugh every single day - but we are enjoying cuddles (on his terms) and I’m giving him his space when he needs it. Xxx

It’s very hard in the first few weeks and it’s easier to talk online than to friends sometimes.

I had to have my lovely boy PTS a week ago yesterday. I was in bits, but wasn't in tears for as long as I thought I would be. He was a rescue, must have been about 9 when we got him, and whatever happened to him prior to coming to us, he had almost 7 years of unremitting love, being spoiled and a good life with us. He had got CKD, was really thin, and was refusing food (I now have a huge stash of cat soup which my other overlord won't touch), and it was time, despite the vet's interventions. He died in my arms being hugged. It was the best thing for him, as it was for your boy OP. It's hard, but it gets easier, and you will start to remember him with smiles as opposed to tears.

I missed your original post, but I just wanted to say how gorgeous he was - and the spitting image of my own ginger beast who died a couple of years ago now. We've got new mini-beasts, but it's not the same - my cat would come into my bed every night and cuddle up next to me foetal-style. I've never had such a loving cat (although only to me) and still miss him hugely.

Hope you're still getting plenty of furry cuddles, and as your say, just remember that you did all you could, and I bet he had a lovely life with you, and wouldn't have changed a thing.

@Fluffycloudland77 - yes, definitely easier to just let it out online at the moment.

@scaryteacher - oh, I am so sorry about your boy. How lucky he was to have been rescued by you, sounds like he had a wonderful few years being loved.

@BookSkark - thank you, and your ginger beast sounds like he was amazing, those types of cuddles are simply the best.

Haven’t had a god few days so hadn’t been able to face checking on this thread. The vets called a Friday afternoon to say that his ashes are ready for collection and that’s sent me down again. I’m not sure I’m ready to collect them yet, but equally hate the thought of him alone their too. Can’t stop crying and can’t even leave the house to see someone for a hug, so think that’s making it even harder. And then that feels self-indulgent given what so many people are dealing with at the moment - but trying to snap myself out of that isn’t working.

Feel like I’m one toe forward and then crash 3 miles back.