My beautiful girl passed away on Christmas Eve. She was a grand old lady aged eighteen but I miss her so much it is so painful. I just don't know what to do with myself to make the pain go away. Her death is haunting me a bit and was quite distressing as she had a lung tumour of which we were unaware until the day she died. Her breathing just became laboured until she couldn't breathe then she was PTS as it was clear this couldn't go on. The vets have just phoned to say her ashes are ready for collection. Everywhere there are reminders, her scratching post, her bed, her food, brushes and litter tray. I loved her so much but can't stop breaking down. I have kids and other cats which obviously help but the pain is so bad. Can anyone offer words of comfort and hand hold ? She was a beautiful gentle girl, with a loud slow purr, and beautiful vibrant tiger stripes. She loved to sit on my knee and would greet me at the door. I just feel lost. 