Broken 💔

[spiderlight]

We had to say goodbye to the best dog in the world on Friday and I am utterly broken. I just don't know what to do with myself. It feels as if someone has torn a hole in my chest and I just miss him so much. It was his birthday today as well, just to make it more painful. My 16-year-old is absolutely devastated and I don't know how to help him because I can barely breathe. I loved him so much. He was honestly perfect. I work from home because of ill-health, and he was my little sidekick, my only company all day, busy and nosy and involved in everything. He made me laugh a hundred times a day with his silly noises and games. There's not an inch of our house that doesn't remind me of him....I just don't know how to be here without him 😭

Honey is gorgeous @NormaLouiseBates Proper fox red Lab 😍 I admit I’ve been haunting the website of the Labrador rescue charity we got our dog from. I won’t get another dog for the foreseeable future, for lots of practical reasons as well as emotional ones, but it doesn’t hurt to dream a bit …

I’m so sorry for your loss @HappyasLarrynot. It must be even harder not being able to explain to your other dog 😢

Hugs to you as well @spiderlight xx

Thank you @JuneFromBethesda she really is a very special girl... I'm not exaggerating to say that the planning of getting her was the only thing that got me out of bed in the early weeks after we lost Alfie. I just didn't want to exist in a world that he didn't.

You keep checking those Labrador sites... you never know who might steal your heart ❤️

Oh lordy. I don't know if it's the best or the worst thing we could have done, but we have somehow found ourselves taking in a teeny tiny half-starved little scrap of an ex-breeding bitch rescued from a puppy-farm, who was with a rescue my friend is involved with and desperately needed a home with someone who's around all day. It's not quite a month since Eddie died so it's probably way too soon, but she's the sweetest little thing, very very timid but desperately wants to be loved and cuddled. She's so different from Eddie - he was a big daft happy clown and really easygoing. I could barely look at her when she arrived and I felt so guilty having another dog here, but she's been here a day and a half now and I'm starting to be able to separate out my feelings for her from my grief for Eddie. We've had to put his enormous collection of teddies away because she's a ripper-upper - that was really hard because they were very much his 'thing' and he always had a teddy in his mouth. She has no idea what toys are, bless her. The vet thinks she's about 4 but she's half the size of Eddie, only 11kg, skin and bones, and she's obviously had multiple litters. Hopefully we can honour Eddie's memory by teaching her to be a proper happy little cocker.

Oh she’s a beauty! She looks so very relieved to finally be safe. She is lucky to have you as her new family, I’m sure Eddie is looking down approvingly. Have you chosen a name yet?

I wish you well and please come back to update on her progress.

Oh, how lovely! She looks so content. 😍 I'm sure you'll bring each other a lot of much-needed happiness.

Oh this has brought a lump to my throat ❤️🥺

She's called Daisy. She's very sweet and desperate for love. I'm very very emotional about it all and I kind of wish she'd come along a month or so later, and my DS has struggled a bit, but I'd have gone out of my mind if I'd had many more days in a silent house.

@spiderlight

you've done a wonderful thing for Daisy.

I expect you'll continue to have your mixed thoughts about whether it was the right thing to do for you & DS, but will quickly come around to it being a good decision. You need each other.

I'm sure in such a loving home she'll settle in very quickly albeit with quirks from what she's been through, poor little love.

today is an emotional date for me & Daisy was my much adored Nana's name, so seeing your new baby girl & her name has been lovely, thank you for sharing 💕

i lost my blue roan cocker many years ago & still miss her.one came bounding towards me on a woods walk a few months ago & just for a split second, I had my girl back. I spent a few minutes fussing her & talking to the woman, but as soon as they walked away I just burst into floods of tears & it took a few days to get over it.

I want another cocker one day, but I need to choose a different colour or I'll be a permanent mess!!

@DaftQuestionForToday - blue roan cockers are the best! We knew we'd have to have a different colour though. Couldn't have coped with another one straight away. I'm glad my Daisy has brought you a little bit of comfort today

I've had three cockers - they all had to be different colours, for the reasons you mention. Good thing they come in more colours than Springers do!

I’m sure Eddie would be glad that you’ve given Daisy a home ❤️

Oh @spiderlight welcome to Daisy! It’s not disloyal to Eddie’s memory to have another dog, it’s a tribute to how much you loved him. What a wonderful thing to do to rehome Daisy, she needs you and she’s beautiful!

These photos and stories are making me very tearful! I have a beautiful 9 year old and we always say as a family 'nothing will ever happen to him will it.. he's not like other dogs he'll be here forever' because the alternative is unimaginable. I'm so sorry for all of you dealing with such a painful loss 💔

And somehow I am crying on the train about Daisy having a lovely new home

What a lovely way to honour your beautiful dogs memory by giving another dog a wonderful home

Oh @DaisyDaisyDaisyDaisyDaisyDaisy - I hope your lovely boy has many many many more years with you.