When I met my ex, he had a gorgeous 8 year old terrier. We acquired another (equally gorgeous) terrier (from the same line) about 4 years later. I am now separated from my ex but we took one dog each (they both had their preferred people). His dog is now cancer riddled and is dying. I am so sad, we are very amicable and he happily let me say my goodbyes. She was my first ever dog and I am so sad. It is probably a bit pathetic but I can't quite fathom the idea of not seeing her again.