and they've only spent one night in kennels in the last 8 years of their lives.
The kennels is 1000km away so I can't even pop in to make sure they are ok (and tbh I'd be worried that it would make it worse for them to see me, and then watch me walk away).
I know it's pathetic, but it feels like my heart is breaking. 
I know that there's probably nothing I can realistically do but just wanted to spill.