Just cried my eyes out at Eastenders

[flutterbeedreaminofawhitexmas]

Anyone else had a good old blub

Yup, DH phone at just the wrong time too. Asked me if I was alright.

did nana finally die?

Ive been bawling my eyes out.... brings back memories.

Was about to post for some support as i face my 2nd christmas without my mum, and for some reason it seems so much harder this year. Last year we were all still in shock and just muddled through, this year it has hit me like a tonne of bricks and i cant stop crying.

Oh and first AF following Rebecca's birth arrived today just to add to the emotions!

Yes nana died expat it was very sad.

Jess - try and keep strong, everything will seem so hard but you will look back and think what a wonderfull Christmas you had

and to add to all that... DH has jsut given me my christmas card.... reads as follows....

FOR MY WIFE

All of the hopes
All of the fears
All of the laughter
All of the tears
All of the comfort
All of the fire
All of the passion
True love can inspire

All that is mine
I will happily give
As long as you let me
As long as I live

Theank you....
For everything you are
And everything you do
Not only at Christmas
But the whole year through

Bloody hell..... will I ever stop CRYING?!

Just have a good bawl, then thank your lucky stars that youve got a loving husband and two gorgeous healthy girls x