I miss being high

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That's all. It made me better at everything.

You're right. The world just feels so cold and dark and boring

How long have you been taking prescription pain meds?

3 or 4 months maybe

Bloody hell.. how many mg have you got if it makes you high?
I've had it for severe pain.. didn't ever get high.You must be over dosing.

180 mg would usually get me a little high. Just a little. That's all I needed. But I was taking more the last few days

Ask yourself this honestly… do you genuinely need help managing your pain, in which case you’ll try things like exercise, physio and anti-inflammatory meds (if necessary)

Or, whether you need some sort of assistance from pain meds while trying other methods, has you buying and taking these meds started you on prescription pills which you now use as the excuse to keep buying them and getting high?

The maximum dose is 120mg every 12 hours unless it's slow release then it's 240mg.
You need to come off them slowly.
If your GP can't help.. speak to your psychiatrist.

That’s a lot. You are building an intolerance quickly, it’s extremely quick to do this with opiates and you’re probably not too far off physical addiction. Do you want nausea, cramps, pain, the shits, sweating but freezing and whatever else for days when you run out? To get to the place where you take 40 pills just to function but you don’t feel any kind of high?

No I've no physical withdrawals

I really do need help with the pain, but I've been abusing the drugs not taking the prescribed dose

I just want to feel happy

I keep almost crying though I don't know if that's a physical symptom

And I get horrific migraines lasting week sometimes and the tryptamines aren't always enough

You're right. The world just feels so cold and dark and boring

This too shall pass etc. I've never had an addiction like you're describing but I had to practically live like a monk for 6 months ahead of a medical procedure earlier this year and I really missed alcohol. I felt like I was living half a life without it, even though I am not a big drinker at all (average 3-4 drinks a week over 1-2 nights). So I do know the feeling.

Best of luck - you sound self-aware enough to nip this in the bud and get your life back on track.

The symptoms you are describing are probably linked.

Also, you’ve said you have a mental health condition and you just want to feel happy and these pills have temporarily given you that. This won’t last for much longer if you keep taking them in the amounts you are, it’ll trap you in a life if misery just trying to keep a huge habit to feel any semblance of normal. This isn’t a good path to go down, and as I s previously said it is proven these drugs can change your brain chemistry.

If you’re struggling to stop you must seek help and not feel ashamed if doing so, before it really gets a grip on you.

Think what you want life to look like this time next year - do you want to be taking loads of pills everyday, driving to different pharmacies miles out to buy OTC just to stave off withdrawals and being a general mess but still not feeling happier? Or do you want something different.

I felt like this after stopping drinking, it was always just one more glass and I never considered myself an addict as I only drank Pinot in the evening but I was an addict and I nearly lost everything, now I’m sober with a new home and both my children back full time, it’s hard to replace the addiction but I promise you it’ll be the best thing you can do, it’s never just one more. I thought I was marvellous when I’d had a drink but I wasn’t, I was just drunk, boredom and depression led to my issues but i really would recommend you get help either from gp or a support group, I felt a fraud the first time I went to a meeting but I’ve made amazing friends who understand, get help now xx

I can catch it. I'm sure I can.

Just keep thinking about that last dose in the box

You can. But you can’t kid yourself that ‘I’ll do it next week’ or ‘just one more blow out’ or indeed being upset and low and ‘I’ll just take a couple to help me sleep’ you need to do it right now, before you get to a really dark place.

When you get cravings, do something else. Go for a walk, exercise, clean, go for a drive, whatever it is while you’re first trying to stop try and distract yourself

Flush it down the toilet now then it’s gone and your recovery starts now xx

Think about flushing it as the start of your new beginning.

Flush!

Get support from us and do it.

In fact. It’s not a new beginning, it’s a crossroads, or junction if you will!

One way takes you to awful physical and psychological addiction that you may never overcome, who knows where this leads. Death, everyday being filled with trying to
source prescription pills but never really feeling high, or gateway to illegal drugs.

The other way takes you being free of these pills and trying to look after yourself and getting better and enjoying life, however that looks but you don’t have the additional stress of a pill addiction.

I can't. Not yet. It's helping me feel it isn't so sudden, that it's all my own choice, and I'm not making an irrevocable decision. I've done this with cigarettes before. I ended up not smoking them

It feels like the blood in my veins is crying for it

I hate my life. I know I'm whining.

Sigh.

Your blood does not need a prescription painkiller.