First time post. I'm definitely a addict I've came to terms

[imgonnalooseit]

So tonight as I sit after a long cocaine binge week crying with the urge to get more but my sinuses are burning I feel horrendous and what started off as bit off fun has turned in to nothing but misery my nose is in so much pain I don't know how to help it it's actual agony I'll be going to gp Monday but I need to get through today and tomorrow so just looking for some
Support has anyone been through this. Bit off back ground I've been taking it for years
Started off just when going out and has progressed but I've taken it everyday for 7 days now hardly eaten hardly went outside I need to knock it off. I'm scared of what it's gonna do to my health

You were very brave telling your mum and admitting it to yourself and the people on here. Wishing you the very best xxx

Thank you it's nice to know
Im not alone all friends use it recreational do I dunno how I'm gonna cope
With that but one day at a time x

You're going to have to avoid the friends who are all using too, sadly. That will certainly be hard.
Is there an addiction support agency near you that you can get help and support from?

https://www.jftna.org/jft/

join a meeting there are many online. Stay hydrated - drink lots of water.

Join a meeting as soon as you can - it will pass time but you will also start to see that you are in a safe community of people who have been where you are but more importantly, have found a way out and are living better lives.

Well done for posting. Let today be the day you start to break the cycle.

Sadly you are going to have to drop those friends. Another reason why NA would be a good call - socialise with different people who want to get clean.

I’m pleased your mum is with you.

How are you today, OP? Did you get to the GP?

I did they were amazing I'm
Feeling very low and I've had the what we up to this weekend from
My friends on the chat already talking about how much they are getting ect I don't even know how to have the conversation with them

Just fob your friends off. Tell them anything. You're ill in bed with covid, going away unexpectedly, whatever. Buy yourself some time until you feel clearer and stronger.
YOU are the most important in your life. Protect yourself.

Hey , this Is not an easy journey. I lost my partner last year to coke and drink. He spent a LOT of money on both last year and it killed him. He spent the whole summer the way you describe. His nose was falling apart. It was bleeding , raw and he was just bunged up in the middle of summer. Eventually pieces of his nose was falling out coz he was a hard-core addict and refused to get help.

I watched him disintegrate infront of me. He went to nothing , wasn't eating , his stomach shrunk so he had to drink spirits to get the same affect with little liquid.

It's a horrible drug and it changes you as a person. Mood swings and yet the circle continues so you don't have to keep feeling shit from the lows.

Please get as much help as you can. There's charities that offer support. You don't always have to go thru your gp.

It's dangerous and will eventually kill you . Maybe not today or tomorrow but if that doesn't, your lack of will power will.

Good luck , with your mum's support I hope you can beat it x

Thought of you today OP. So pleased you went to the GP.

This may impact the friendships around you but your truest friends will support you and be proud xx

Massive hand hold from me xx

Can I recommend a podcast called Menace to Sobriety. It's stories and experiences from real people who have gone through what you are going through and advice for real situations (like dealing with your friends texting about the weekend). It's not a bullshit wellness podcast either, it's gritty and raw.

Hope you are feeling better today

How are you doing @imgonnalooseit ? How was the visit from your mum?

I'm okay im falling the GPs advice and I have my first meeting tomorrow. I've told my friends i have tonsillitis and that's why I was at gp and can't get out this weekend I'm probably gonna have to tell them eventually. As the group chat is pinging "how much need for this weekend"

That was a good 'reason' to give your friends, well done. If the group chat is bothering you can you just leave for a bit? Doesn't have to be a big deal - you can say you need a break from it while you're poorly. Give yourself some space.
Glad you're doing ok. Have a hug from me. x

I almost caved tonight I haven't tho yet. I'm gonna sleep and try ignore
It although I'm an idiot I bought wine as I've had a dreadful day everything's went wrong I had a bath a poured
Myself a wine and then obviously the urges came my friends
Are also out I think I have fomo.
Hate myself for even touching it in the first place

That's good to recognise that the alcohol is a dangerous decision - if you're going to give yourself the best chance possible you're going to have to lay off that too I'm afraid

I know I feel
So silly

@imgonnalooseit , how are you coping today? It's particularly hard on days like st Patrick's day.😔😔😔

First of all calm down.. second ring someone and be with someone to explain your situation.. you need support and possible medication to help you come off it..

I'm addicted to nicotine so trust me
I know how hard it is I've tried everything but still find it difficult

Buy a book about giving up addiction etc

Turn to a local church and have a good clean relationship with Jesus

Talk to doctor

I wish you the best

Hey just out of interest how are you coping ? The stuff is ruining my relationship. & the other week I was in the same situation as yourself, I had a 3 day bender - couldn't look at myself in the mirror even as I looked at state !
This weekend again, caused and argument which has now lasted 3 days… suppose to be going on holiday on Saturday but that’s not looking as myself and my partner are both so low.

Nothing good ever comes from it. You get a buzz then turn into a mong and loose days. I then like yourself feel crap and resort to wine to drown my depression which doesn’t help either ! I’ve a vicious circle

How are you coping as similar story. So hard. Hope things going well x

How are things going as similar story. Hope all going well x

I've actually had a relapse which is why I'm currently up atm I lost someone in my family and it's completely thrown me. So ofcouse went in to self diest

Self distruct mode that was meant to say and I'm just so annoyed my nose is bleeding and I haven't slept since Saturday sorry my story isn't very helpful I hope you are okay and get help it is so bloody hard