Where were we? Flipping those darn flat pancakes again

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Hello, damn quick work there by MNHQ

Oh Magi {{{}}}

Oh MM, anxiety is so horrible. It just stops you doing everything you want to do and everything you can do. You're right to go and see if there's anything that can help.....

Oh sweetie. Help is definitely a good idea.

MM why - why so paralysed ? Totally ignore me if explained elsewhere..

I avoid mirrors at all costs.

Magi - sending hugs.

Have returned from private sales this afternoon - tried on lots - looked dreadful in everything. So agree on thinking you look ok when you leave the house - tripping gaily down the road until .. the shop window reflection. Glad it's not just me.

BD - not explained anywhere - just so fucked up with waking up every morning & the weight of the world seems to come down on me.

For example:

Spoke to DS tonight & then thought supposing that is the last time I ever speak to him because I might die on holiday.

Worrying hugely about the transfer back from the rental to the airport at the end of our holiday. Which is daft as I've been to this place many times before & never had a problem ...

Life is just a stress fest atm & this is the first time |I have admitted it.

MM, anxiety is the beast that eats its own tail, round and round, getting more and more stuck. You'll feel so much better for making the first step towards breaking the vicious circle.

PS - A bonus for me that I no longer give a flying 'f' about how I look.

(I am clean & decently clothed)

Mind you, the kind of stuff you mention is what goes through my head all the time. I'm just better at talking myself through the crazier bits these days. Most of the time.

Stropps - You have nailed it :

anxiety is the beast that eats its own tail, round and round, getting more and more stuck.

Magi, even mild anxiety is so tiring and debilitating and sometimes humiliating (I have found - I have it a bit and lots of my family too) - important first step taken. How did your dh react?

Magi, I am so sorry you are feeling anxious. I get anxious when I am going away, but to help I always have all the family round for a meal the Sunday before any trip, so we can have a happy day together and it means I have seen them recently. I realise this won't be so easy for you, though. Keep on talking about it to us all. I am sure, though, that you will know that we all get more nervous the older we get.

It's not so much the mirror, reflective surface I avoid, but photos. They seem to bear no relationship to how I look, IYKWIM.

Appalled once again at the incident in London. When will it all end?

Feeling very despondent and worried that this will be our new normal. It's hard not to feel very scared in the face of such attacks in familiar places. Awful.

Yes. I get it that fear is what the attackers want but it is hard.

I get a sort of free-floating anxiety, that attaches itself to the most innocuous events or situations. Other times, those events hold no fear.

Though if I had my family round before going on holiday I would probably go quite quite mad.

Ah, but I mean my two children and their partners and children, Herbs. I would probably go mad if it was my DSis (am now starting to worry about going away with them, I think it was a triumph of hope over reality!). I don't have any other close family.

MM, sorry to hear you are feeling bad. You and NU are my retirement role models so I want you to find your equilibrium again soon!

Well said Mrs W.

Yes. I want to be you when I grow up.

Mrs W.

I am not grown up!

OK, Magi, you don't have to be a grown up role model .

Crem, how did yesterday go?

I am reading a Real S&B thread about How to look Expensive.

It makes me realise just how un-S&B I am. And I paid a whole £7 (seven, vii) to get my toenails painted the other day, I'll have you know.

Heh, I am of the opinion that if a person is concerned about "looking expensive", no matter what they do they will end up looking as though they tried to hard. But then I am happy to expose my bald and unadorned toenails to the world, so what do I know?

Er, too

As the great Dolly P said, it costs a lot of money to look this cheap.