Crepeys of a consistently high standard

[Stropperella]

So there. :)

I did use the words "consistently high standard" in my application, while thinking "the Crepeys would want me to say this".

Lalsy, thank you. I know nuffink about poker, but I see what you mean. Anxiety often causes me to throw more of myself at a situation than is strictly necessary and I need to rein in that tendency.

I think I may contact my nice tutor from the course and ask her for some advice re: teaching. Once I get the exact details though, that is.

Herbs, I know exactly where you are coming from

Oh, Stropps, go for it. If nothing else it will be good practice actually going for an interview, but it's all positive, I think. Pants about the car. Sending good vibes to you.

Monty, DH has just spent an hour tidying, sweeping up in the back garden - lots of bits of grit off the roof. He hasn't attempted the front until it is dry.

Beachy, at bug. I once had a kaput photocopier - it turned out a mouse had got into it and chewed the innards.

Rudy, that dress is so lovely.

That's brilliant Stropps! I do that too - lying awake al night worrying makes it very hard to hold back in the morning.

T-shirts all round then?

These are the shoes I want poncing around in France shoes

I just found last years pair when I dared venture into dd1's room - it's clear they were on her shortlist of clothes to take inter-railing (along with the other half of asos which is on her floor!)

Great minds Beachy these are my bensimon poncing about in France numbers very comfy

Next has those too, Beachy. Depending on your foot size they're also in the kids' range.

Stropps, chill, calm and impress.

I don't have imposter syndrome: I know I am an imposter. Hence terror at idea of teaching people to be journalists. My journalism training is limited to some evening classes Molly kindly sent me on!

Stropps, as my military colleague always used to say to me, and I am passing on his words of wisdom to you: Man The Fuck Up, Princess.

Imposter syndrome is well known among women of our age. We can do it, and we can do it to a consistently high standard. We know we can. I have just applied for a couple of jobs of a significantly higher grade and pay band to my current one. If I get an interview, I will be gibbering too. You can do it Stropps, you know you can.

Show me almost any woman and I'll show you an imposter syndrome sufferer. Stropps listen to Herbs and the other Crepeys. They are wise. Try to be in the moment…which currently is the application process. When it's the interview…be in that moment. If you get a job offer, move on to that moment and so on. Looks over shoulder as complete imposter in giving inadequate mindfulness advice

Beachy The Next dress feels slightly loose…I don't pull the tie as I don't like gathers around the waist. As it's linen I expect it will stretch but I must be one of the few S&B posters who actually likes that tendency. I'm 5' 6" and it comes to the top of my knees…I don't like doughy thigh showing or I have to to add leggings. I've now gone and bought the other (patterned ) colour way as I liked the dress so much, but it might be a bit busy for me.

Wish you better MI Awful to be ill in this heat. BD after last night I can't imagine surviving 47 degrees…in fact I haven't slept for 2 nights.

The rehearsal is just that…HerrD wants to rehearse the reading …He's cast himself and ConS, so I'm doing notes (and feeding back) )

Stropps - agree with other Crepeys and Rose. I think you could do both jobs but the nearer part time one might fit into your lifestyle better and also give you the confidence you need.

Rose - which was the Cambs hotel you liked - feel like treating myself for once and need to book for "the rentree" which is 3rd October! DD1 a bit miffed as has received a reading list already.

Beachy - I'm finding the successful interrailing stories reassuring.

Stropps, you are amazing. I have so much respect for you and Herbs training at this stage of Crepeydom that it makes me feel a bit sick. My own inner imposter syndrome is fed by the consistently low standard of the management above me. I wibble about almost everything in spite of knowing very well that I would make more informed decisions than them, be a better leader than them and certainly be better qualified than them. Stropps don't listen to your inner Imposter. if needs be Fake it till You Make it.

Rose love the dress. Rudy love the dress and am of 18 yr old Dh
Today I am dunging to the living room in anticipation of The Builders and the bi fold doors. Horrified by skulking filth and cat hair balls.
Weather wise we have that threatening grey heavy sky. The kind that gives you a migraine. I was in the garden yesterday with my factor 100 and 12 on but have one strip of burn above the leg of my specs. A shocking pink stripe. Grr

Lunch tomorrow with very old friend form childhood. Her lovely daughter has decided she was wrongly gender assigned and is about to undergo surgery and hormone treatment.
Our troubles are all relevant aren't they.?

Relevant=relative ffs

hatty
Highly recommend a room with a river view….pricey though!

Email from HerrD…we are going to be in the dance studio….it's a sauna even in mid winter….

Thank you, everyone. I am just going to put my head down and go for the full-time job and if there's nothing doing with that one, I hope to have an interview for the other one the following week. There is no comparison between the 2 jobs, really. The full-time job is a proper careery one, working in a specialist unit with a shit-hot team who want to take it places (and I would be earning a bigger salary than I have ever had in my life - although given that I have not had a salaried job for 17 years this is not saying much. Oh and I think there is a pension as well). The other place is just offering a jobby-job, which will actually be really dull after the first 3 months and will pay pocket money, relatively speaking. I can get my challenge from doing the post-grad thing at the same time, but it won't take me anywhere much. And I run the risk of being used as a teacher while not being paid as one. I can put up with that for a short time as a means to an end, but it's too easy at our age to get stuck and sidelined, I suspect. Still, I would rather have a crack at that job than not have one at all.

Maybe in a fortnight's time I will still be sitting here jobless, but at least I'll have had some interview experience.

On a completely different subject I can thoroughly recommend this choc cake recipe It only uses rye flour - so good for those who don't do wheat? Certainly doesn't give me "the bloat". Well, not until the second slice. Very darkly chocolatey and fudgey. Scroll down for the cake recipe if that link takes you to something with beans in it...

ps: I feel I need a t-shirt with MTFU, princess on it.

Me too Stropps . I'd be wearing it for most occasions.

Man Up is one of dd's favourite exhortations. Applied on a strictly gender-neutral basis, of course .

Stropps, if s shit-hot place begs you to apply for a job there, I think that's a pretty whopping slice of external validation, whatever happens next.

Go Stropps.

Ooh er Rose - cheapest is £180 b&b - that's in the summer sale! I wonder if I dare - it would be just round the corner from the college for once so I could actually eat out and drink something!

Stropps fab fab news!!

I am wfh tomorrow so can forget logistic horror until Monday.

Stropps fab fab news!!

I am wfh tomorrow so can forget logistic horror until Monday.

Trouble is Hatty you'll be spoilt like me and won't want to stay anywhere else when you visit...the corner rooms are particularly lovely...

I am sitting shellshocked in Costa near the theatre trying to let the adrenalin run its course before I go home. Wow. ConS and I have an urgent all day meeting on Mon to make the changes to the script based on the reading rehearsal and the feedback. I wasn't too nervous before ( ConS was, funnily enough ) but as soon as we got into it, I felt shaky, nauseous and weird. Something about having other people handle one's baby, maybe... What I would say about HerrD is.....his directing was pretty awesome.... I need to work on not feeling intimidated. These are people I've been working with for years....don't understand.

Well done Stropps! Go you! Echo everything the others have said. Is it the job you showed us last weekend?

Rose - still hesitating.

Very sexy guy with dreadlocks playing Nadal (and winning).

Mm, he doesn't do anything for me, Hatty, but he is playing great tennis.

Stropps, the job, no career, sounds amazing. Nothing ventured and all that.

Rose, well done to you, too, on the reading through.

Tonight we tried the Cadbury's pretzel and peanut butter milk chocolate which I brought back from Canada: it's amazing and should definitely be on sale in the UK. DH has discovered 2" holes in the polycarbonate lid of his cold frame- that hail last night must have been something else.

Um, no, NU, the Canadians should keep that chocolate for themselves. So it stays as far away from me as possible. :)

Rose, sounds like the reading went well, then, even if it was a bit traumatic?

BTM, yes, it's the job that I showed you. When I saw the facilities at the school, I was like this =>