And in all my wisdom (ha) I've realised I love my other children.....it's just my feckless Disney husband who has been in able to quash guilt and blend his family's. And for all these years I though it was me! Well, my other children love me and their half brother (my son). They see him as a brother (no half needed). No point in this post I suppose except as to say....you can't fight guilt :) hang in there x