Feel free to tell me to shut up.
The dp's are very helpful. The person I've employed is brilliant. She takes ds2 and ds3 and I look after ds1 (usually take him out somewhere). On Tuesday mum had a day off and took ds1 home so I was sent out for the afternoon. I spent far too much in a bookshop then sat in a cafe with a coffee and cake feeling very guilty because it wasn't difficult iyswim.
DS1 is relaxed as he's having plenty of attention. DS2 and ds3 are happy.
Sooo if you haven't applied for direct payments yet then get applying!!