thanks davros...like i said many times...i am GRATEFUL 100% to Tom.
For getting diagnosed with something that on reading up on i realised explained ALL my difficulties....ALL my life!!!!
For me it has been like finally being able to take off the blidfold and ear muffs....and climb out of the goldfish bowl!!!!! In that before i knew about Asperger's Syndrome....i completely believd that I was the ONLY person to feel as i did.
I still have difficulties with my parents...they will never take on board AS....but what has changed is my 'expectations' of them....and forgiveness for how my childhood was.
For them i was everything that Tom & Leigh are to me....except that they DIDN'T UNDERSTAND.....so saw all my 'odd' ways as ittitating....and never ocnsidered my need for routines etc..... so the result is that i hated them- and i truly believe that if i'd never had kids....then i may never have learnt about AS....and the result would have been that I'd still hate my parents.....and I'd still be 'locked in my own world'.
Instead i feel liberated by it all....it's still hard....but i think i know myself so much better now....so if like on that questionairre they talk about 'difficuklties at social events'....then i feel OK to have difficuklties....cos i KNOW why!!!
And then when i look back on my working career...all the times i panicked when things got moved....plans were changed...misunderstood what i was told.... got swamoped in tasks and lost my way....and then in my personal life how i am always being told I take things too much too heart or the wrong way....which i know now is the 'Adult' for of 'Taking Things Literally'
And finally..... i have always been aware that i get sooooo carried away- over enthusiastic/talk way too much etc ...to the exclusion of all others....and to total exhaustion.... and to finally understand why this happens....well it's a huge weight off my shoulders!!!
I know 1 other lady who is an Un-diagnosed Adult AS.....but i would love one day to meet someone who has been diagnosed....and just compare notes!!!