Now I am one. The next thread for Beatrice.

[cupofteaplease]

So, Beatrice is now 13 months old and developing slowly but surely. She brings joy to everyone she meets and makes my heart swell with pride.

At the moment, she is very poorly in hospital. She appears to have overcome pneumonia, but the remaining secretions are causing her huge problems. Her airway blocks at random with a mucous plug and she has had to be revived with a bag and mask 3 times in the past 24 hours. Naturally, I am in a permanent state of anxiety at the moment. I just want Beatrice home again. We have so many more memories to make.

Please spare a thought for Beatrice's sisters if you can- they too are poorly with a sickness bug and all they really want right now is cuddles with Mummy.

Life is tough right now, but nobody said it would be easy...

Dh and girls are here now. She's taking very few breaths. She's comfortable in my arms.

thinking about you all ...sending strength to you xx

Sending prayers to you all xxxxx

Here with you Cup - hoping and praying that she's going to come through this still.

xxx

Sending you love, love and more love. Your little angel has always been such an inspiration to us xxx

She got down to 4 breaths a minute, sats so low they didn't register. Mum came. I cried so many tears. Her eyes were dry and not focussing, for the first time, when I spoke to her she didn't look at me. She didn't respond to her toes being lightly pinched.

Then she began to breathe a bit faster, more regularly. Her sats are now at 76%. She's still poorly, but her eyes are closed and she's sleeping. Her temp is 40.1 and heartrate 200 bpm, so we've given her calpol.

Unfortunately I realised, and the nurses have confirmed, that her respiratory distress was caused by too much morphine being prescribed- something which I'd picked up on the last admission before they actually administered the dose. This time, it was given when I'd dozed off so didn't notice to intervene. Apparently I'll need to speak to the sister tomorrow.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense, I've been awake all night.

Oh cup, i am so sorry you have had such a night. i can think of nothing to say except to say all my love and thoughts are with you.

Oh honey. Infrequent lurker here sending you much early morning love and hugs from the Fletch household.

You must be knackered

I'm so sorry to hear you've had an awful night. Especially with regards the morphine.

I hope Bea is comfortable today and you can both snooze.

How did your other DD's appointment go?

Oh cup so sorry you have had a terrible night and that the hospital caused it. I hope Bea is just sleeping because she's in her normal fighting spirit and when she's strong enough she will open those beautiful eyes. She's the first person I think of in the morning and your all the last thing I pray for at night. X

Sorry to hear you've both had a terrible night. I hope you get some answers today about the morphine.

Prayers continuing. Another one who needs to put the computer on as soon as awake.

Oh Cup!! I feel your distress and helplessness. Praying hard for you all that Beatrice gets better.
Thank God that you realised about the Morphine. Thank God. x

oh Cup - you don't need that! I'm so sorry that you and Bea were caused unnecessary distress by too much morphine and I hope they never do that to either of you again. :(

I'm so relieved that she's picked up again this morning - hope the calpol and antibiotics can do the job and bring her out of this infection.

xxx

I am thinking of you all, especially yourself and Bea. I really really hope that today is a bit brighter, I wish there was something I could actually do to help but you are never far from my thoughts x

Praying for you all.
Love, light and peace.

Hi,

Another long time lurker on this thread. I just wanted to tell you that I am thinking of you. I know you don't want to hear this but you truly are inspirational and sometimes we need to hear that particularly in the hardest of times. Sending good thoughts and prayers for Bea xx

My first thoughts today were you and Bea. Much love.x

Thinking of all of the teaset. Much love to you all xx

We're with you Cup.

Hugs to you all

thinking of you and sending hugs xx

Have hardly read your posts properly yet cup - just wanted to post that I am praying. X