this is just a rant
(have had the shittiest week - completely let down by tutors, one has gone awol for no apparent reason the other had a huge safety lapse with ds that allowed him to run into a dual carriageway road & was very nearly killed - I am very, very close to saying that's the end of the ABA because finding good people seems to be utterly impossible.
DH took the day off to cover awol tutor & had similar lapse - ds escaped from house (dh told ds it was time to go out then got distracted by the fucking iphone & didn't notice him get his shoes on open the front door (which is always bolted
)). It has got to the point that I feel I can't trust anyone with his care - he has never escaped with me, he walks well, he doesn't tantrum he doesn't run off. I can't do it all on my own though - I'm having a c-section in 3 weeks, I am incredibly stressed & exhausted (if I can't sort out tutor issues dh won't be able to come to birth).
DS is crying every time I take him to nursery - saying he needs me & he misses me - I need that time that he is there for my sanity - I know he is safe if not in the most educationally effective environment.
Had big SALT/consultant meeting re his dire receptive language results - both are perplexed since functionally his understanding is so much better than the test suggest - even in novel situations. He is so conversational & socially appropriate - I don't want to start 'teaching to the test' because experience has shown that the more we do that the less spontaneous & more withdrawn he becomes. Both have suggesting that we do more schedule based work which I really, really really, don't want to do - ds has no routines or problems with flexibility I do not want to introduce the idea that we have a set schedule at all.
He has totally kicked-off with the toilet training - everyone says he should be able to do it, but he can't and it is so stressful - he says he hates the toilet & he won;t ever sit on it now. He wee'd on the floor this morning because he was angry with me - I feel like we're creating problems rather than solving them.
On the plus side - he stated asking why questions)
God I'm tired.