Dd is 15 months. I look like a vampire, I'm haggard and feel a hundred. I think she's slept at some point during the last year but I'm damned if I can remember it.
We've just tried controlled crying, by which I mean I cuddled her, put her down in her cot, and left the room but only went as far as outside the room and kept going back to let her know I was there. From 8-8.30 she screamed, so I went in every couple of minutes, reassured her, lay her back down again and left the room. I was doing this for 45 minutes and she was still going, screaming, she is hardcore.
I then looked down at my clothes and saw BLOOD! She had somehow hurt herself, I think probably by banging her mouth against the side of her cot in rage. I didn't hear her do this or hear anything other than screaming. It was like a horror film, her face was covered in blood. So we cleaned her up, cuddled her, (she calmed down as soon as I picked her up, I really don't think there is anything wrong with her, it looked worse than it was) and put her back down again but I feel awful and don't know what to do now. She is asleep now because she wore herself out with screaming. We have got to sleep, she has got to learn to sleep but she is SO determined, she's made herself sick before and now she's hurting herself! Wtf do we do? Even if she does come in with us she doesn't sleep well so co sleeping isn't going to solve this. Did anyone else have a determined mad one like this? TIA for any advice, links to other threads, tips, sympathy, anything.
(PLEASE, I don't want to debate controlled crying, I agree with it but I don't want to upset any of us any more than necessary. I am all for trying a softer version where I don't leave the room). The person who's cried more than anyone over this non sleeping is me.