Married for 20 years. Two kids. Good, loving husband. Not much sex ever really. Mentioned to a pal when a bit tipsy that I didnt think I’d ever orgasmed either alone or during sex/sexual activity (I was SA at primary by another student, and a family friend subjected me to quite a bit of inappropriate touching when I was in my later primary years. I think I’m okay about this, but have often wondered whether it’s impacted my ability to relax during sex). Anyway, said friend brought me a sex toy (you may guess which from username switch!) for my fiftieth. Bloody hell! Like are they meant to be this intense?! Like pleasurable but also so incredibly intense and overwhelming??! I squirt (which I think I’ve always worried about and held back cos of!). How should I feel afterwards? Like totally relaxed? I don’t especially. I’m so glad I have and can, but it’s totally blown my mind. Any - er - late comers to the party??