Name change as this is a very personal subject. 😶🌫️ So I've been with my partner for 6 years, I've always been into bdsm (submissive).. it isn't really his kink but we always made it 50/50 so I would help him indulge in his fantasies and I'm open to pretty much anything, he was always open to doing what I liked.. we bought the toys and well.. use your imagination 😂 we are pretty kitted out in the bdsm department. Over the last few years it has become all about him, I've talked to him numerous times about how I feel unheard and that I'm not satisfied In the bedroom. We have great sex but I feel like there's something missing, he won't even do the tame beginner level acts any more. I genuinely feel like this is a massive part of me that has been taken away.. It all came to blows the other night, I made an effort to get myself dressed up and looking good in some of my kinkiest clothes and went downstairs to the lounge in an effort to tease him a little before heading to the bedroom. He started pulling me towards him and was obviously just going to go for it there and then, I told him that we should go upstairs and "play" around like we use to. I went upstairs waiting for him to join me but he never showed up 😂 I went downstairs and there he was.. fully naked lying on the couch! I lost it, told him he was selfish and that I'd had enough of never feeling fulfilled with our sex life. I went upstairs, wiped the war paint off and got changed into the ugliest baggiest top I could find. 🙈 he did try to apologise but I couldn't even stand to talk to him so I just went to bed. We have had sex a couple of times since and he has still made 0 effort to do what I like. 🙄 should I just resign to a boring sex life?! I literally cannot make it any clearer when telling him what I want and I get nowhere! Before anyone says about just withholding sex It won't make a difference, he has a low sex drive and wouldn't be bothered In the slightest 😂 I on the other hand would be.. something is better than nothing 🙈
Thanks for reading if you got this far.. what are your thoughts?