What does this say about me?

[Lookingforsomething1983]

So I'm a straight female, always have been and no desire to change that.
Very much find makes attractive.
What concerns me is why do i find gay relationships on TV and especially gay sex in TV shows a Huge turn on?!
I've just finished watching the TV show Looking and I was so turned on by the whole thing. It worries me?! Is this weird, I think it's weird.
Why do attractive gay guys having sex turn me on? I feel like I can't tell anyone.

I presume you mean gay men, not gay women?

I don't think it's that odd. If you prefer men sexually, then watching men do sexual things tends to be rather nice

I also think that a lot of heterosexual sex scenes are designed for the heterosexual male gaze so they focus on women, whereas there's a focus only on the men in the gay scenes so...

Isn't this just the reverse of men liking to watch women together - which is really common? Enjoy and don't think of it as wrong. Nothing that is between consenting adults is wrong.

I think it's fine! I know what you mean, I think it's because it's so very, well erm, male!

There is absolutely nothing to worry about.

Just enjoy your actual preferences (what you would do in practice) and eye candies.

It's a man, and another one - what's not to like? - and possibly a bit of feeling a bit naughty and transgressive.
Incredibly common - just look at the huge amount of slash fiction putting male characters together (eg Archive of Our Own), almost all written by women.

SO not weird - as NotCitrus says, slash fanfiction is a massive thing and 99% female. Ditto M/M romance novels - written by women, read by women. You might like this article by one woman exploring why she personally writes/reads slash which explores the basic motivations often given.

I find this quite interesting.

I'm very sexually open minded, identify as heterosexual (am a woman)- but don't find two men together at all sexy. Two women on the other hand, i really do.

Human sexuality is a tangled, messy thing isn't it...

OMG?! I'm totes the same and am definitely not a man?!

I am completely straight, but really enjoy watching gay sex - male/male or female/female (I like male/female too) - I think it just means that I like sex and find imagery very erotic. I don't think it says anything about my sexuality.

That's good to know. And yep and I am female, attracted to men and find gay male sex a turn on.
I half wonder if it that the gay things I have watched are often filled with care and emotion that the males have for each other which is something I don't often see.

I find gay male erotica quite sexy too. Also love seeing two women get it on and have had numerous crushes on women but am pretty much a heterosexual woman.