DD has done another set of mocks but think only maths back so far where she got 100%. She has got 4 offers from sixth forms, all her choices and subject choices, last one conformed today, think she will hold a few and wait until results but likely to go to the big, very academic local one as her boyfriend will go there and its academic. I am not sure how it will go as she currently misses loads of school and turns up late and is a heavy user of pastoral care which is not great there but academically its great and great location and she says she will change. If she cannot cope there there are other places she can change to so sure one option will work for her. Current school are very laid back on her missing half the days atm, relief for us we are not being fined and they are so kind.
Just started chemotherapy 2 weeks ago, finding it very tough going and DD has been pretty vile to me past week and I am on steriods and the combination of teenage mood swings and steriods is not great. Was my birthday today and at 12.10am, chemo day before and in agony with eye pain, she was in ranting at me for not booking her trip to Paris when she has the rest of her social life to book (how selfish of me to be doing chemo and only planning all the things around it) then later she was back saying she hated me, her brother hated me, my husband hates me. My husband is amazing and tells me he loves me and would do anything for me everyday and does so I know that's not true and her brother is very loving as well though terrified for me and him. She goes through long periods of being lovely then we get these episodes but its such a difficult time for them atm, just hate being her emotional punchbag but am an easy target as I am sick atm. I have counselling starting on Thursday, her latest threat is if I see a friend on holiday she will refuse to come and get her brother to refuse to come. I was quite hurt at first but then I thought actually if you are going to be horrid that is actually quite tempting and would save me lots of stress and money though her brother is really easy on holiday so hope he would come. He is only 15 as well so too young to leave at home. She has a boyfriend now who seems very sensible and lovely and he seems a good influence and most of the time she is lovely and doing amazingly well. She is going to Paris at Easter to be with MIL for a week, hope she doesn't take covid over to her as she is late 80s and a hugger and kisser but MIL is happy to have her and not seen her for a long time. MIL sent me a lovely birthday card with a really sweet message, think we will see her in the summer hopefully, she does not know I have cancer as she would worry so much but will have to tell her in summer when I have no hair but at least chemo over then. Have a call with the cancer team to discuss the problems having tomorrow at 10am and hopefully can find solution. DS is struggling so much at school, mute, no friends, just wandering around field, so want to move him schools but having a nightmare with EHCP and have to spend loads of time on that and not easy with chemo but current school are saying must find a new one end year 10, urgh. And parking fine appeal for chemo failed today, great. Though at least my steriods give me energy I can do things on. The cat also gets seriously jealous of my cancer and howls any time anyone talks to me, and also awakes and asks for multiple breakfasts when DD comes to me past midnight with her daily problems for me to solve and poor DH gets little sleep between all his girls. The girl silkie is now indoors and she often lays an egg very loudly at 7,30am, she is so cute and lovely and the rabbit is bouncy and lovely, they are a good distraction but will be so glad when my chemo and DDs GCSEs are over. Still lots of treatment after that, 10 years of stuff but hoping this is the worst of it and don't get left with permanent issues though looking dodgy on that atm.