Have posted this in the mental health section as well.This may sound like a small problem but it's really worrying me.
Split from husband in March 2010, he's with OW.Devastated. Married 20 years, now getting divorced. Got 2 dc aged 18yrs and 11yrs, who are with me.
Last year booked 2 holidays for myself and daughter(H never came on hols with us and ds too busy with A levels to join us). H total nightmare on holidays anyway, complains about everything.
Okay, had the first holiday in May, beautiful cruise round the med. Before I went I was coping very well, back in work, going out evenings to dance and aerobics etc. The holiday set me back, full of honeymooners and people celebrating 50 years of happy marriage. Made me wistful, depressed and I cried quite a bit whilst on it. Took me ages to get over it when I got back home.Still not over it.
So, I've got another holiday booked for October half term, me and daughter. Ds at Uni so doesn't get that time off. Don't know whether to go or not?
I wouldn't hesitate to cancel, BUT, it cost about £1100 and if I cancel, the cancellation fee is £630 (easy jet flight, so no refund). The holiday itself is all-inclusive. Haven't paid it all, theres's about £350 to be paid by 24th July, after that date there's no refund, Paid by direct debit.
So if I cancel at least I'll save some money, but it does seem a lot to lose, but don't want to experience what
I did last time.
I realise now that I was going on holidays to get away from my abusive H to relax and chill and now I can do that in my own home, so don't need holidays anymore.
Will it tilt me over the edge to go on this holiday or will it be worth going as a last holiday? Definitely won't be able to afford holidays after the divorce, so it will be the last one...don't regret that one bit,no more packing or hanging around airports...bliss!