How do I accept that we are not getting back together?

[colnelcustard]

I have posted before and got lots of good advice.

I finally have got it into my head that he has gone and we are not getting back together.

BUt how do I move on from this, how do I heal?

I feel like I have been kicked in the gut.

How long is it going to be before, he decides actually he does not want to fiannce me living in the house and paying for everything.

I am absolutely heart broken but dont want to be fucked financially.

I just want things to go back to normal.

Sounds like you need two or may 3 things:-

1. A counsellor or therapist to help you get the emotional stuff sorted.
2. A Lawyer to take care of the legal stuff and the faster you do that they better.
3. completely optionally a bit of fun!

I don't know how I am going to cope alone with the three kids.

I know I cant' even think of someone else but who is going to want someone. THree hcildren by two men, divorced and destitue. great fucking catch i am going to be.