*****WELCOME TO THE VORTEX OF INSANITY********

[pinemartina]

And step inside a world where:

You are invisible unless required for gratification or provision of supply...

You will be very careful to walk,talk,act and think in a very particular way at all times - but randomly,the expected pattern will change randomly- and you will be HAPPY for the opportunity to do this....

..because your happiness - and possibly your dc's will b at stake.....

Your needs do not exist - even to you..

But everyone else will envy your perfect world...

You will be GRATEFUL for little tiny pieces of positive attention,so that you don't notice you have come to resemble a kicked street-dog in the gutter and you will be fearful to lose those delicious scraps - which you will come to see as all you deserve....

Your perceptions will cease to make sense - as if you are looking into a room full of carnival mirrors - but you will strive to make sense of this to yourself with ever more desperate rationalizations...until your head is spinning

But it will feel WORTH IT....

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaSCREEEEEEEEECH

I could go on...and may do later but I'm going off to reality town for a it...xxxx

is that you?

there is an alternative to living like that you know!

No No No by the POWER OF SHE RAH I have escaped The Vortex !!!!!!!!!

But thank you so much for asking.

I am validating my new reality.....I should have said,,,,

ah well,in that case....i too escaped,lifes much brighter now!!

I had a nice policeman pull me out from the edge of the vortex of insanity today.

But I had enough SHE RAH, to make the call!

It's okay, PM
They do make you crazy, there's no need to 'understand' it all. Not just yet, anyway!

Take a deep breath and stroke your baby ...
Did you make it into town?
xx

I just leapt into the vortex about 10 mins ago.

Arrives to collect DC, for a quick get together, not seen them for 3 weeks, all he can spare of his precious time.

No doubt gifts will be bought, to salve conscious.

Told DC I didn't want to see him, but he came to door anyway.

Tried to kiss me on cheek, I turned away.

Youngest DC said 'told you', and he said 'what's the matter'

FFS he left me to be with office whore, caused untold pain, devastated DCs.

WHAT'S THE MATTER - arrogant b***d!!

Need to calm down, hope he doesn't try and come in on their return.

sorry i crashed your thread

It's not crashing!! It's a recognition thread!!!Thanks partytime Grace - thanks! Yes ,I drove in ,although not signed off by Dr for another 2 weeks,but it did me good to be amongst a busy shopping crowd.

Took dd3 to meet her d,rather than wait for him to collect.He bought us all a coffee and asked for a cwtch of baby.
We havr never met up with him while xp around,as xp HATES xh - no grounds whatsoever,but believes we cop off any chance we get...ffs

When they had gone ,dd1,dd2 and i all looked at each other and said "just imagine what xp would do if he knew"
This will become a real issue,I fear.
We have no idea what he might do - other than rage and be foul-mouthed,but the fear is there..especially at the idea of xh having anything to do with his baby....

He didn't come in when dropping off DC, thank goodness.

Did ask DC what was wrong, as when he saw me last week I spoke to him.

I had no choice last week, it was about legal stuff, not a social visit, what a prat!

Still DC happy they did come home bearing gifts, teenagers - eh!